Saturday, October 4, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 40)



The Eats:


5-minute refrigerator dill pickles (Tastes Lovely)

Garbage plates (Adventures of a Nurse)

Macaroni salad with Greek yogurt dressing (Menu Maid)

Oil free home fries (Mama Sezz)

Spaghetti squash lasagna boats 
(Meal Prep in an Instant)

Tuscan chicken pasta (Meal Prep in an Instant)

The Empties:

Jar of applesauce
Fresh basil
Five pound bag of carrots
Head of cauliflower
Two pound bag of cheddar cheese
Frozen cottage cheese
Frozen cozy white beans and greens soup (How Sweet Eats)
Container of dill
Carton of 18 eggs
Carton of grape tomatoes
Frozen gravy (Mayo Clinic)
Green pepper
Container of Greek yogurt
Three pounds of ground beef
Two pound bag of Italian cheese
Frozen lentil soup
Box of macaroni pasta
Half gallon of milk
Two pound bag of mozzarella cheese
Box of penne pasta
Package of pepperoni
Five pound bag of potatoes
Two cans of pumpkin
Head of romaine lettuce
Brown n' serve sausage
Frozen sourdough pizza crusts (The Perfect Loaf)
Spaghetti squash
Strawberry chia jam (My PCOS Kitchen)
Frozen Thin and crispy pizza (Budget Bytes)
Can of tomato paste
Frozen tomato paste

What went to waste:
   

A little bit of a sweet potato, but I saved the rest!

Tuesday, September 30, 2025

Everything I Read in September


I got in quite a few books this month, including three paper books and six audiobooks! I finished up a few books I had been in the middle of last month, and I got through the rest of the books my library had by my current favorite author Becky Wade. All in all, it was a good reading month! I am thankful!

81) At Lighthouse Cove by Suzanne Woods Fisher—I liked this book, until I did not. The book continues to follow the Grayson family as Cam and Maddie adjust to marriage, and as their father Paul runs Camp Kicking Moose. The youngest daughter Blaine returns from abroad, with a Parisian friend in two. Flashbacks peace together the story, and it seems more filled out, until it seems like the author might have run out of ideas, space, and time, because in one incident at the lighthouse, the story pretty much dead ends. While I am thankful for the opportunity to finish this series, I think I have reached the end of my reading from their author. Most of the rest of her books are about Amish country, too, which is not a particular interest of mine. Thanks for the summer reads, though!

82) You are Free: Be Who You Already Are By Rebekah Lyons—This is another spiritual memoir of sorts by author Rebekah Lyons. In it, she shares her journey to live out of her already free identity in Christ. She argues that confession is the path to freedom, and that freedom enables believers to serve and encourage others. While nothing in this book was particularly new or earth-shattering, it did remind me of the powerful truths in which I need to found myself. Additionally, the audiobook was a soothing devotional to pour over myself through listening during my day.

83) Memory Lane by Becky Wade—Islehaven, Maine artist Remy Reed spots a man floating in the ocean, and rescues him. Problem is, he does not remember who he is. This seems like a comic start to a story, but it is filled with intrigue and got me hooked. What follows is a story about fame, fortune, pain, power, love, and forgiveness. I thought I had the story figured out, only to see it go in a different direction, and then end with my identified guy being the true bad guy. This is an intense book—read the author's trigger warning on her website to make sure it won't bring up bad memories—but then if readers are up for a heady romance, mystery, and intrigue, pick this one up!

84) You Are the Girl For The Job: Daring to Believe The God Who Calls You by Jess Connolly—I have read several of Connolly's books now, and this one, like the others, is written in her endearing, encouraging, personal voice. In this book, Connolly acts as a cheerleader for believing in and following God's calling. She shares some of her story, while including lots of scriptural examples. While there is a little bit of health/wealth gospel flavor (if a person obeys, he or she will experience obedience), there is also a lot here about struggle and facing down fears because of belief in a big and powerful God. The concept that struck me ultimately, though, was this: “Knowing exactly what God wants us to do is not the aim of our life; worship is” (p. 180). While I want to be obedient to God, my ultimate job, as the Westminster Catechism puts it, is to “glorify God and enjoy him forever.” Connolly's book encourages me towards that end.

85) She Deserves Better: Raising Girls to Resist Toxic Teachings on Sex, Self, & Speaking Up by Sheila Wray Gregoire, Rebecca Gregoire Lindenbach and Joanna Sawatsky—If readers want to read a book that will ruffle feathers, this one will! Written to Christian moms, it is really a book for all women raised by the church to be "small." The authors speak out very strongly against blaming girls and women for male struggles (eg lust, pornography, sexual assault, etc.). They argue for strengthening women and their faith, and letting men be accountable for their own issues. Why will this book ruffle feathers? Well, because it names many prominent Christian publications and explains how they have harmed women (eg Brio magazine, I Kissed Dating Goodbye, And the Bride Wore White, Every Woman's Battle, Every Man's Battle, etc.) While I am not sure I agree with everything in the book, I think its concepts demand some consideration (and it is based on survey research). The questions and exercises for moms and daughters are helpful, too. Ultimately, instead of blaming girls for male stumbling, the church needs Christian discipleship for all, boys and girls. That is better, not just for girls, but for all members of the church, because the way the church treats women is not just a girls issue, but a corporate issue.

86) Counting the Cost: A Memoir by Jill Duggar with Derick Dillard and Craig Barlase—Another audiobook down! Yes, I might be slightly preoccupied with the Duggar stories (having read several now, as well as several other books from the IBLP movement). I have some skin in the game, though, having gone to college near this family and had friendships with people part of this movement. I recognized a lot from this story: the setting, the surroundings, sadly even some of the teachings. Reading this book alongside She Deserves Better helped me see some of lies involved in religious sects that set lots of rules for women in order to “help the men behave,” sects like the one in which Jill grew up. Jill's particular story opened my eyes to the inner workings of the Duggar family, how the show impacted it, and the burdens borne by the Duggar children. It seems to me that riches and the sexual abuse scandal involving Jill's brother Josh were the ultimate corrupters of the family. All hope is not lost, though, as in the epilogue, Jill points out a lot of good things about her upbringing. Although Jill counted the costs and got out of being a “filming family,” she still loves her family and wants to be part of it. She writes that she is working on healing her relationship with family and looks forward to that ultimate end.

87) Stay with Me by Becky Wade—Genevieve Woodward is part of the “Miracle Five” youths who survived an earthquake, and she has spent her life trying to “pay God back” for saving her, first as a Bible study writer and teacher, and then in every other area of her life. The problem is that she is floundering, and now using Oxycontin to try to survive. Sam Turner, meanwhile, is trying to control his circumstances so that he doesn't have a repeat of his past. When he walks into the cottage on his farm and finds Genevieve asleep there in a hungover stupor, the facade starts to crumble. Meanwhile, Genevieve's parents are hiding secrets, and someone is out to get the family and their reputation, or at least their letters say so. This is a masterfully written story including romance, murder, intrigue, and truth. It testifies of the power of transparency, forgiveness, and the grace that comes and stays when those are present. While some might need to read this story with caution, due to its content, this is a story I am thankful to have read, and one that will definitely stay with me long after reading.

88) In Every Pew Sits a Broken Heart: Hope for the Hurting by Ruth Graham with Stacy Mattingly—Though she is the daughter of legendary evangelist Billy Graham, Ruth Graham’s life has been anything but legendary. Instead, it has been full of brokenness and hurt. After discovering her husband’s infidelity, she went through several divorces, as well as serious issues with her children (bulimia, teen pregnancy, and drug use). She tried to seek the Lord, but still made mistakes. In this book, Graham chronicles the everlasting love of God, family, and friends that sustained (and sustains her). Part memoir, part self-help, this is a testimony to the brokenness that faces all people, children of famous Christians or not. It is both said and encouraging to hear Graham’s story, and I admire her honesty and vulnerability in telling it.

*I’m not sure this is the whole book, as the end of the audiobook says it was “condensed” from the original book.

89) Dancing Through Life: Steps of Courage and Conviction by Candace Cameron Bure and Erin Davis—First on Full House, and then an actress in numerous movies, and finally, a contestant on Dancing with the Stars. This is Candace Cameron Bure's tale of her experience, and what it both revealed and taught her about the Christian life. I enjoy listening to the audiobook of Bure telling about her struggles with the judgement of others and how she made decisions that felt most obedient to the Lord. The appendices of this book instruct readers about how to find a biblical church and good Bible studies. All in all, this was a solid book that both gives a window into Bure and her life, but also what it means to live with courage and conviction as a public figure.

90) From Good to Grace: Letting Go of the Goodness Gospel by Christine Hoover—This book was not everything I hoped it would be. It was a solid presentation of how the goodness gospel infiltrated the author's life, and how she learned to receive God's righteousness and live out of it, rather than striving to be “good enough.” Why was this book not everything I hoped? I hoped for some big aha moment, but what I found instead was reminder of the truth I *should* know, that I am saved by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). For this reason, the book was a good read, one I, and probably a lot of other perfectionists like me, need.

91) Point of View: A Fresh Look at Work, Faith, and Freedom by Elisabeth Hasselbeck—Elisabeth Hasselbeck went from a walk on softball player at Boston College to a shoe designer at Puma, then a contestant on Survivor, and finally, a big name player in conservative broadcasting (as a member of The View and later a Fox News commentator). This book details much of her adult journey: what she learned about faith and God along the way, and how she learned to work with people whose views differed greatly from her own. I enjoyed listening to the Hasselbeck narrate her own story in the audiobook and appreciated both her vulnerability and honesty. Though Hasselbeck was not familiar to me before this book, she is apparently pretty famous, at least from the names she names. She is humble about it, though, and writes about learning to like people over politics and being right with people over being right. She truly does have something to say, which made Point of View not just enjoyable, but applicable, too.

92) Rocky Road by Becky Wade—FBI Agent Jude Camden has a secret op: to act Perfumer Gemma Clare’s boyfriend and intercept Gemma’s cousin selling trade secrets. He isn’t supposed to have any real interest in Gemma, but he can't help but be attracted to her. Gemma, meanwhile, is trying to keep her business going and solve the mystery of her grandma’s love story. This is a sweet book, rocky road ice cream freezer raids and all. It also has mystery, intrigue, a little danger, and some historical references. Through it all, the author focuses on grace and learning to give it to self and others. I throughly enjoyed running down the road of this story a wish the library has the last book in this series!

93) Serenity in the Storm: Living Through Chaos By Leaning on Christ by Kayleigh McEnany—After everything that has happened of late, I thought I might should catch up on some cultural issues. That I did through this audiobook. Though I appreciated the biblical perspectives McEnany presented, I think she went into too much gruesome details about things like war crimes and partial birth abortion. I can believe those things are wrong without knowing all the gory details. Additionally, though I found McEnany to be tactful in her writing, I also found some of her discussions to lack nuance. It is not surprising that McEnany is biased towards the right. She was Donald Trump’s press secretary. I guess I hoped for a more biblical, less political book, but alas, this is not that. Read if you like, but this was not the book for me.

94) Running with Joy: My Daily Journey to the Marathon by Ryan Hall—Mostly training log, with reflections on each day of running, this is Ryan Hall's story of preparation for the 2010 Boston Marathon where he took fourth. Though I am a runner, the immense miles of a pro runner did not interest me. Hall's vulnerability about his struggles with comparison and trying to find his identity in God, however, resonated. This book was easy to read, so for me as a runner, it was worth the time spent. I look forward to reading Hall's second book, Run the Mile You're In next.

95) Let It Be Me by Becky Wade—Leah Montgomery's two ambitions are to get her brother through high school and go to Princeton to get her PhD, a goal she put on hold to raise her brother when her mother went off gallivanting around the world. A little bit of a control freak, Leah is determined to give her brother what she never had: stability. Meanwhile, Dr. Sebastian Grant, one of the Miracle Five who survived an earthquake, is determined to not get too attached, to never love and lose again like he did with his mother, who died when he was young, leaving him in the foster system. The two met in book one of this series, after Sebastian had an automobile wreck. They reconnect at Leah's school, and then when Leah needs help researching her medical files. This is a book about identity, trust, forgiveness, and love that chooses to stay. While a few parts struck me as a little unbelievable, I appreciated the overall sentiment of the book, found a few plot surprises, and overall enjoyed reading.

96) Turn to Me by Becky Wade—In this conclusion to the Misty River series, the last and most aloof of the Miracle Five Luke Dempsey gets out of prison. He planned to build a cabin in Montana and recluse there, but first he has a promise to keep. Little did he know that keeping the promise would mean working at an animal rescue for beautiful Finley Sutherland. He says he is there to keep a promise to her father to keep her safe during her birthday treasure hunt. She is on a secret mission to “rehabilitate him.” What follows is healing for both of them: Finley from her fear, and Luke from his guilt. Along the way, readers get to see conclusions to relationships started in the first two books, and a change at love for Ben Coleman. While this was not my favorite series of Wade's, it is perhaps the most redemptive and Christ centered. It's got all the elements of a good page-turner: murder, love, mystery, and suspense, but also sustenance. I think it's worth a read.

Monday, September 29, 2025

Strong(er) in September


I am not sure I am every going to get a pull-up. I have almost reached the end of another cycle of the Nourish Move Love Assisted Pull-Up Plan, and I just don't possess the strength to really pull myself up as a lower the weight of the resistance band. Oh well. I said I would try, and I am trying. Maybe this exercise is building mental strength, if nothing else. 

While I did finish the 30 day core challenge from Run to the Finish, I don't think it did much for me, so it is back to the old PT exercises of eccentric step-downs, banded lateral walks and resisted supported fire hydrants. Sometimes it's the simple stuff that works best. A few more weeks and I will be tapering for my next goal race!

We seem to be getting hit with some hard stuff in our marriage, not the hardest of hard, but what feels to me like spiritual opposition. We have both had individual stuff weighing on us. The circumstances of life have reduced some of our usual quality time. It's been hard, BUT we are as committed as ever and working even harder to stay connected. Recently, that looked like buying a new game to play instead of watching TV, and going to a running event together for the first time in about five years.

I have learned some stuff spiritually through my reading. The pressures of life and culture remind me daily of the importance of being in the Word. I am trying to keep my nose there so that I can remain strong to do the work set before me. I have been living on a wing and a prayer more days than I would like, but maybe that is what growing stronger means: relying ever more and more on the strength of Jesus and the prayers of His people.

Saturday, September 27, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 39)

 


The Eats:

Cottage cheese pizza (I Heart Vegetables)

Cottage cheese pumpkin spice cake bars (Poulef Recipes)

Easy pumpkin Greek yogurt biscuits (The Athletic Avocado)

Gravy (Mayo Clinic)

Pumpkin bread (All Purpose Veggies)

Sourdough discard pumpkin bagels (This Jess Cooks)

Vegetarian chili (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Yogurt flatbread (Cooking with Ayeh)

The Empties:

Frozen black beans
A whole cantaloupe
Two pound bag of sharp cheddar cheese
Bottle of cumin
Bottle of garlic powder
Container of Greek yogurt
Bag of frozen green beans
Dry lima beans
Frozen onions
Oranges
Bottle of dried parsley
Frozen pesto (My Quiet Kitchen)
Pine nuts
Five pound bag of potatoes
Head of romaine lettuce
Container of Skyr yogurt
Strawberry chia jam (My PCOS Kitchen)
Can of diced tomatoes
Dry white beans

What went to waste:
   

Nothing that I know of yet!

Wednesday, September 24, 2025

Hard vs. Heavy


My husband and I attended a running event together this past weekend. (Yes, a running event. I talked him into it.) We got up very early. I saw the sun rise. We ran. We ate. We waited with anticipation for our numbers to be called in a raffle (which didn't happen). We took pictures. It was a stellar time and I thoroughly enjoyed it.

The value of that event came into perspective later in the day when we read our devotional. The heavy of the world settled back down on my shoulders and I felt its weight. I realized that in the morning, while I was running those 14 miles, I felt relief and a reprieve. I hadn't thought about how hard life was, and for those few blissful hours, I had just been present, in the moment, and happy.

When I was in graduate school, my internship supervisor advised me to take up a hobby that would take all of my attention. "You need to be able to do something that keeps you from focusing on the hard," he said (or something like that). I have passed on that advice to many of my supervisees, but maybe it is advice I need to relearn to appreciate in my own life.

There is hard, and there is heavy. There is a difference. Some things are hard because they are heavy: death, divorce, suffering, wrestling. Other things are more "just" hard: a challenge emotionally, physically, and/or mentally. (Think survivor challenges, endurance sports, intricate hobbies, puzzles, etc.) I think sometimes we need to do "just" hard things to take our mind off the heavy. And sometimes we need to choose to do hard things in order to strengthen ourselves for the hard and heavy things.

Ask yourself: Are there any hard things I choose to do? (Because there are certainly a lot of hard and heavy things we don't choose to do.) If your answer is, "No," is there a hard task you could pick up? A challenging puzzle? A world game? A math equation? A sport? Is there a skill you could challenge yourself to learn? We can do hard things. Sometimes we just need to prove it to ourselves. And in proving it to ourselves, we get a respite from the heavy, as well as amassing strength for the moment when it comes time to pick the heavy back up again.



Monday, September 22, 2025

We Caught The Cougar!

On September 20, 2025, around 6:15 PM, we caught the cougar shadow. The cougar shadow is a phenomenon that happens only twice a year, in the third weeks of March and September (Visit Mesa, n.d.). On clear days, as the sun sets, the sun casts a shadow over the Superstition Mountains that looks just like a pouncing cougar. The phenomenon lasts for only about 15 minutes, and then it is gone.

I have wanted to catch the cougar shadow for several years now (having seen it posted about in social media, and on the local news), but in March, the day we set aside to see it was cloudy. Clouds obscure the sun, and therefore the shadow and the phenomenon. I worried a little bit about our ability to see the shadow this time, as I saw clouds gathering over the mountains. My husband assured me that the clouds were in the wrong direction from the sun, and therefore of no concern.

To catch the phenomenon, we drove a ways out down a two lane road in Apache Junction (about half an hour from our home). The Visit Mesa (n.d.) site says to pull off near Goldfield Road and Superstition Boulevard, and that is what we did. There are several pullout areas there, as well as open land on which to walk out. We arrived about 5:15 pm, and found only a few cars there at that point. Later, probably six other parties joined us. We sat in our car and watched the mountain until about 6:10 pm or so. As we saw the shadow on the mountain growing, we got out to watch and photograph it. The phenomenon lasted only as long as the sun was starting to set. As the sun set lower and lower, the shadow faded, and then went away. (We did see the last tinges of sunrise as we departed). 

As my husband said, God does nothing on accident, so we consider this phenomenon a gift of God. It was a joy and a thrill to catch it, and perhaps we will do it again sometime. As it is, September 20th was supposedly the last day of the phenomenon for 2025, so that will have to wait until Spring 2026.

References:

Visit Mesa. (n.d.). An insider's guide to the cougar shadow on the Superstition Mountains. https://www.visitmesa.com/blog/an-insiders-guide-to-the-cougar-shadow-on-the-superstition-mountains/ 

Saturday, September 20, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 38)

The Eats:

Apple cider muffins (Sally's Baking Addiction)

Pesto cottage cheese pasta (Hummusapien)

Pumpkin protein pancakes (How Sweet Eats)

The Empties:

Jar of anchovies
Jar of applesauce
Fresh broccoli
Five pound bag of carrots
A bag of my favorite Rodale cocoa from Costco
Container of cottage cheese (Some frozen for a future pasta sauce)
Frozen easy gravy (Health My Lifestyle)
Bag of frozen green beans
Jar of Kalamata olives
Half gallon of milk
Can of pumpkin
One box of rigatoni pasta
Two boxes of rotini pasta
Seventy ounce jug of picante sauce/salsa
Two pounds of strawberries
One can of whole tomatoes
Pound of ground turkey

What went to waste:
   

Some strawberries were soft, but I used most of them!

Monday, September 15, 2025

The Answer



The answer isn't more hate. The answer isn't more love. The answer is Jesus. Full-stop. Period. End of story. Only Jesus can put to death hostilities by nailing them to the cross (Eph 2:16). Only Jesus can rectify and redeem all the injustices of the world. Only Jesus can save.

Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6). Jesus is the Savior. Jesus is the answer. He's where I am putting all my hope.

Saturday, September 13, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 37)

  

The Eats:

Asian chicken "stir fry" with ramen (Meal Prep in an Instant)-frozen for the future

Banana oatmeal bites (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Cozy white beans and greens soup (How Sweet Eats)

Easy buttermilk cornbread (Cafe Delites)

Easy gravy (Health My Lifestyle)

Healthy banana brownies (The Conscious Plant Kitchen)

Homemade ketchup without sugar (A Sweet Pea Chef)-Frozen for future use

Honey garlic chicken bowls (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Instant Pot apple cider (Real Food Deals)

Peach and strawberry cobbler (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)

Sourdough discard rosemary salt bagels (This Jess Cooks)

Southwest breakfast casserole (Meal Prep in an Instant)

The Empties:

Avocado
A whole cantaloupe
Five pound bag of carrots
Box of chicken broth
Fresh corn on the cob
Bag of frozen corn
Container of Greek yogurt
Head of iceberg lettuce
Bunch of kale
The rest of that half gallon of milk that soured
Mushrooms
Can of onion powder
Quinoa
Fresh peaches
Jar of Costco peanut butter
Two pound bag of frozen peas
Orange bell pepper
Five pound bag of potatoes
Can of pumpkin
Red bell pepper
Box of ramen
Head of romaine lettuce
Frozen sourdough protein pancakes with whole wheat (For the Pleasure of Eating)
Bag of baby spinach
Can of tomato paste
Fifteen ounce can of tomato sauce 

What went to waste:
   

A peach that rotted from the inside out--I wanted to try to salvage it, but could not bring myself to it.

A clove of garlic rotted?

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

Real Life Marriage: I Want You to Have Nice Things!



I balked when my husband wanted to buy me a Mac laptop. He had already bought me a (cheaper) Dell laptop, but when the screen broke within a year, he insisted on buying me a higher quality product. I don't like spending lots of money. I don't like spending lots of money on me. Though I am high maintenance emotionally, I think I pride myself on being lower maintenance when it comes to things, or at least I thought I was.

My husband insisted on buying the Mac laptop, and inside of fighting him, I decided to submit and let him do it. I had a sense that if I fought him, I'd end up continually frustrated with my broken Dell (which would adversely affect him), or inevitably end up with another device that would last a short amount of time and then check out on us.

Many years past that point, I am really thankful he bought me the Mac. I have taken it on trips. I have used it for hours without power. I have watched videos and uploaded tons of photos. I took it on our cruise. It has held up. I am so thankful!

I rarely get a chance to buy nice things for my husband, but I have been asking him for a while if I could help him buy some better running shoes. Several years into my shoe journey, I have found that shoes make a big difference, and I wanted my husband to experience the difference, too! While he did not exactly let me pick out his new shoes, he did end up settling on a brand and model that I have and enjoy, and that made me very happy! As he received his shoes and started asking me questions about them, I felt joy swell inside me. And I thought, I think I am starting to get it. When you love someone, you want them to have nice things!

Nice things are not always feasible. There are many things I would like to buy my husband that do not fit into the budget. When we get the opportunity to help each other have nice things though, there is a lot of joy in that. Maybe rejoicing in nice shoes is a sign of getting older, but hey, it is love in all its glory, and I will take it!

Saturday, September 6, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 36)


The Eats:

Banana oatmeal bites (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Best gravy (Brand New Vegan)

High protein Mexican street corn pasta salad (Rachl Mansfield)

Low country boil (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)

Oat bagels (Oats Everyday)

Pumpkin protein muffins (The Clean Eating Couple)

Sourdough discard bagels (Farmhouse on Boone)

Sourdough discard strawberry bagels (This Jess Cooks)

Strawberry chia jam (My PCOS Kitchen)

Strawberry muffins (Hummusapien)

Tuna cakes (Just is a Four Letter Word)

The Empties:

Package of andouille sausage
Jar of applesauce
Bag of cheese sticks
Cilantro
A dozen eggs
Container of Greek yogurt
Green onions
Honeydew melon
Head of iceberg lettuce
Lemon
Old onions (some chopped and frozen for later use)
Plums
Can of pumpkin (yes, 'tis the season!)
Head of romaine lettuce
Bottle of lime juice
Half gallon of milk
Frozen onion
Orange bell pepper
Plums
Five pound bag of potatoes
Bottle of pumpkin pie spice
Red bell pepper
Two pounds of shrimp
Bag of split peas
Bottle of dried thyme
Pound of ground turkey
Two cans of tuna
Bottle of vegetable oil
Zatarain's crawfish, shrimp, & crab boil in a bag

What went to waste:
   

A few leaves of the iceberg lettuce that browned, but overall, no major loss!

The end of our second half gallon of milk soured, but I will try to use it up if I can!

Sunday, August 31, 2025

Everything I Read in August


Once again this month, I was a slower reader and more of an audiobook listener, but...I did fit in some good end of summer books. I am proud of myself and thankful for that. Here's what I listened to and read this month:

70) Street God by Dimas Salaberrios with Dr. Angela Hunt—Think of this book as a modern Run Baby, Run meets Cross and the Switchblade! Written in his own words, this is the story of Dimas Salaberrios, a middle class youth born to unmarried parents, who started dealing drugs at age 11, went on to be a big kingpin, and then came to Jesus. I listened to this as an audiobook while running, and honestly, I am not sure I could have read it, because it was intense. I am talking about very violent experiences, hard drugs, demon possession, and exorcism. Dimas talks about his "trial and error" sanctification, his overseas missions, his church planting under Tim Keller, and more. This is a true, "come to Jesus" book, charismatic and convicting, about a man who wanted to become a street God, and instead took God to the streets. I am unclear what Salaberrios is doing now, but his story is a testimony worth hearing or reading!

71) The Best Summer of Our Lives by Rachael Hauck- With four main characters and times alternating between 20 years in the past and the present, it took me a little bit to get into the story, and then a little while longer to get people and places straight (or at least mostly). After that, I was engrossed in the story of the Four Seasons (Spring, Summer, Autumn, and Snow), best friends relegated to serve as counselors at Camp Tumbleweed the summer before their transition into college. When they couldn't have the best summer of their lives, they vowed to give their campers the best summer of theirs. Along the way, they faced lies, truths, spiritual questions, and even some danger. The author weaves the story together in truly heartwarming ways, and with literary devices that I can only attribute to writing genius. She does it all while pointing to the constant, never-ending friendship of Jesus, too. I think this truly is the best book I have read all summer!

72) The Song by Chris Fabry—Think of this as Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers, but where the male character is the struggling one. Based off the movie by the same name (which I have not seen), this is the story of Jed King, son of musician David King, a man who vows to forgo his father's sins, but then falls right back into them. Parts of the story seem a little bit cheesy (like the names), and I would say the plot's crisis resolves a bit too quickly. Overall, though, the book was poignant and powerful. I especially appreciated the almost seamless integration of passages from Ecclesiastes, Proverbs, and Song of Solomon. Not exactly a biblical retelling, but a story that incorporates biblical truth, this is a story I enjoyed reading. It is edgy, but not inappropriate, and ultimately testifies to the power of God's love and redemption, songs all believers need sung over them again and again.

73) Let’s All Be Brave: Living Life with Everything You Have by Annie F. Downs—This is classic Annie F. Downs writing: personal, easy to read, entertaining and poignant. In this book, written from various coffee shops around the world, Downs shares moments when she had to be brave in her life. She was brave when she stayed to work at a college campus ministry, brave when she packed up and moved to Nashville, and then to Scotland, and back. She shares her reticence to take these brave steps and testifies to how God supported her all along the way. She challenges readers to take courage from God, be brave, and do the next right thing. Although I did not find anything in this book earth-shatteringly unique, I did find the book prompting of some introspective thought. With as quickly and easily as this book's pages passed, I would say it is worth a few days to read this book and get encouraged about living bravely from a woman who has done it herself, many times over.

74) Under Pressure: Confronting the Epidemic of Stress and Anxiety in Girls by Lisa Damour, Ph.D.—Stress is not bad, but too much of it is. In this book, psychologist Dr. Lisa Damour explores the rising sources of stress for girls, and the anxiety that can result. Not all anxiety is bad, she states, but it is bad when it become overwhelming and paralyzing. Covering issues like academics, gender, and stress, Damour uses composite stories to bring to life to the struggles of girls, along with her clinical expertise about how to handle these issues. Written for the every person 
(though I listened to this book via audio), and perhaps every parent, this book documents the role that adults have in helping normalize everyday stress and reduce pathological stress. The end goal is to help girls face stress well, bravely, because under pressure, carbon produces diamonds. 

75) Freefall to Fly: A Breathtaking Journey to a Life of Meaning by Rebekah Lyons—Rebekah Lyons thought that moving to New York City with her family would be an adventure. Instead, it became a freefall into anxiety, and a search for meaning. In the end, she learned about surrender and trust in God. Although I didn't agree with quite everything Lyons writes, and don't think that everyone has the luxury of freefalling to find purpose, I think it is valuable to think about who God made me to be and surrendering to it. This book is both personal and philosophical, convicting and compassionate. I enjoyed listening to the audiobook of it.

76) 
On a Summer Tide by Suzanne Woods Fisher—I had a hard time getting into this book. I dipped my toe in, but then it was just slow swimming. Paul Grayson spends his retirement income to buy Three Sisters Island and Camp Kicking Moose, the place where he met his wife. He hopes to enlist the help of his three daughters: Camden (Cam), Maddie, and Blaine, but they aren't having it, until they get to the island and sense some of its charm. There are some sub-characters and subplots that really deserve some mention: Captain Ed and his lobster, Peg Legg and her restaurant/store, schoolteacher Seth Walker, and Cam's son Cooper and his ball of string. When I step back and look at the book from that angle, it really is well crafted. It also has sweet lessons about family, forgiveness, and love. I would say that the tide had pulled me in by story's end, but then getting the next book required a hold. Will I read more in this series or will the waters ebb out before the next book comes in? We shall see....

77) Becoming Free Indeed: My Story of Disentangling Faith From Fear by Jinger Vuolo with Corey Williams—Jinger Vuolo grew up a Duggar, indoctrinated into abiding by the tenets of the Institute of Basic Life Principles (IBLP), as taught by Bill Gothard. Then she and her sister Jessa married godly men who encouraged them to seek understanding of God through the Bible, and that changed everything. In this book, Vuolo unpacks lies that she believed under Gothard and biblical truths that set her free. She bravely shares the fear-based religion she practiced under Gothard and how she has disentangled her faith from it, rather than deconstructing her faith. This book reads more like a devotional than a tell-all and is filled with Scripture. I applaud Vuolo for writing it and pray that she and others who grew up under the IBLP continue to find freedom through faith in the Jesus of the Bible.

78) Shoe Dog: A Memoir by the Creator of Nike by Phil Knight—Not quite a memoir, not totally a business book; part story and part philosophy, this is Phil Knight’s tale of building Nike. From being a boomerang kid with a master’s degree and an interest in war history, to a world traveler who started Blue Ribbon shoes somewhat on a whim, to building his company, Knight sure had a ride, and not without challenges. He nearly went bankrupt several times. He endured lawsuits. He had enemies. He admits time and time again that he worked too hard and didn’t give his family enough time. This was an engaging read, but also one that saddened me some, in that it reads like Ecclesiastes, pointing to all the important, but meaningless toil it takes to build a business. In the end, Knight writes about trying to find meaning, but it rings hollow. Though the Alberto Salazar controversy (and other mistreatment of Nike athletes) keeps me from being a fan of the brand, this book does give me empathy for Phil Knight, as well as respect. He built an empire, even if it’s one of shoes that will, in the end, fall.

79) On a Coastal Breeze by Suzanne Woods Fisher—The hold came in pretty quick, so I continued reading about Paul, Cam, Blaine, and Maddie Grayson as they navigate life on Three Sisters Island. There are really meaningful parts of the story, about fear and forgiveness and love. Cam and Seth finally figure things out. Maddie resolves some pain from the past with the arrival of childhood classmate Ricky O'Shea. Blaine continues to search for meaning. I liked the story, and somehow it still seemed to lack some nuance and death. I plan to read the third book, but I am just really not sure what I think of this author/series.

80) Getting Good at Being You: Learning to Love Who God Made You to Be By Lauren Alaina—I was not sure about this book when I started listening to it, as it seemed to be all about self-love. As the book went on, however, I came to enjoy learning Alaina's (runner-up on American Idol) story. She wraps up the book well, too, encouraging people to serve others and be who God made them to be. Read by the author, this was an enjoyable (reasonably) short audiobook that left me with some feel-good feelings.

Saturday, August 30, 2025

Strong(er) in August



No pull-up gains this month, but I did go up one more pound in the dumbbells I used for strength training. No, it is not a lot, but it is something, and I will take it. Although I still an't do a pull-up, I think I might be gaining a little bit of strength, as push-ups seem a little bit easier, and like I am doing them more fully. I have committed to eating more protein in this season, but it is just hard to gain muscle when I am training to gain strength to hit my running goals.

On the running front, I did switch to a new training plan this season. I bought the 30 day core challenge from Run to the Finish and have been working through it instead of doing my daily physical therapy exercises. I have had the return of some foot pain, though, so after this 30 days I am likely to return to what works. With the heat and my strength, I am not hitting the prescribed paces in my new training plan, but I am trying and that takes some mental strength. I will take it and thank God for it.

Our marriage weathered another air conditioning outage this month. Thankfully, my husband is just working one job this time. (Our air went out three years ago when he was also in school.) It was not pleasant, but we survived (in part thanks to my hairdresser, who loaned us their portable swamp cooler). We continue with our devotions, and we have even fit in a few fun date days (a culinary day and a paint by numbers day). Quality time helps fill my love tank, which gives me more bandwidth to weather trials like the air conditioning outage. An addition to our Sunday routine has been couples yoga or stretching after our walk around town. That has been a fun way to connect, and I think that having fun together also strengthens our marriage.

Spiritually, I am sticking with my same routine. I am not sure if that makes me stronger or just maintains strength. Either way, I will take it.

I guess that is the theme of stronger this month: I will take it. While the limits of my strength are finite, God's are infinite, and for that I praise God and look forward to the next month of growing stronger in the life that He has given me.

Eats and Empties (Week 35)



The Eats:

Easy honey buns-adapted from an Instagram recipe I saw here with honey glaze (Simply TaraLynn)

Hummus for us (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker) 

Sourdough pizza (The Perfect Loaf)

The Empties:

Five pound bag of carrots
Costco container of cinnamon
Dijon mustard
Carton of a dozen eggs
Two containers of Greek yogurt
Jar of mayonnaise
Half gallon of milk
Jug of olive oil
Bag of Parmesan cheese
Old container of pea protein powder
Five pound bag of potatoes
Nectarines
Head of romaine lettuce
Homemade mozzarella cheese (Simmer and Sage)
Two 28 ounce cans of crushed tomatoes
Two cans of tomato paste
Box of rotini pasta
Twenty-eight ounce can of whole tomatoes
Pound of ground turkey
All that whey from last week

What went to waste:
   

Just a bit of some iceberg lettuce, but we composted it!

Thursday, August 28, 2025

A Prayer for the Everyday


A Prayer for the Everyday
By Sarah Earles

Guide me in the everyday,
I pray:
In the rising,
in the resting,
in the waking
in the doing
in the shopping
in the work
in the eating
in the cleaning
in the running
in the stretching
in the loving
in the losing
in the morning
in the evening
in the mid-afternoon
in the twilight
in the words
in the wisdom
in the speaking
in the listening
in the reading
in the prayer.
Guide me Spirit, everyday
I pray.

Saturday, August 23, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 34)

 

The Eats:

Basic cornbread (Little House Living)

Best lentil soup (Cookie and Kate)

Black bean and quinoa bowl (thrown together from black beans, cheese, leftover pickled jalapenos, leftover quinoa, and salsa; and topped with an egg!)

Chicken and vegetable risotto (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Pesto (My Quiet Kitchen)-frozen for future use

Protein breakfast bowls (Two Raspberries)

Protein peanut butter (Nadia's Healthy Kitchen)

Protein sourdough pancakes (Secretly Healthy Home)

Sourdough protein pancakes with whole wheat (For the Pleasure of Eating)

Stuffed pepper soup (Meal Prep in an Instant)

The Empties:

Old apples
Arborio rice
Two boxes of fresh basil
One box of chicken broth
Creamy protein peanut butter (Cheat Day by Design)
Frozen easy sourdough muffins (Baker Bettie)
Three bags of frozen green beans
Two green pepper
Head of iceberg lettuce
Can of pickled jalapenos
Lentils
Jug of maple syrup
No cook nectarine chia jam (The Fit Cookie)
Three pound bag of onions
Peaches
Two pound bag of frozen peas
Quinoa
Frozen red bell pepper
Pound of baby portobella mushrooms
Old brown rice
Five cans of diced tomatoes
Two cans of tomato sauce
Pound of ground turkey

What went to waste:
   

Some of the basil leaves were bad, but we knew that when we bought it on sale, and the rest made good pesto!

Monday, August 18, 2025

This March Called Life


This March Called Life
By Sarah Earles

Marching, marching
Will it ever, ever end?
But God said march.
God said pray.
God said stay the course,
so another round I'll go.

Marching, marching.
I'm getting tired, Lord.
But you said if I marched,
the walls would fall,
So I'm waiting,
Waiting.

Waiting, waiting,
obeying marching orders.
The seventh day hasn't come
but God said it would,
so I keep marching.
I keep walking by in faith.

Maybe these days are years.
Maybe these days are centuries.
I don't know,
'cause I haven't seen the victory yet.
But God said it would come,
and he hasn't failed me yet.

Marching, marching,
on and on I go.
God said He'd give victory
and I know He is able.
So as long as I'm able.
I'll continue, until the walls fall.

Until the walls fall,
or God me releases.
This life is my march.
Obedience is my call.
God deserves it all,
my obedience, my life, this ongoing march.

(Loosely based on the fall of Jericho depicted in Joshua 6).

Saturday, August 16, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 33)

 



The Eats:


Caesar dressing with anchovies (Cuisine with Me

Golden gravy (Dr. McDougall)

Homemade mozzarella cheese (Simmer and Sage)

Honey peach grilled cheese (Budget Bytes)

Lemon lentil soup (What Molly Made)

Pan de mie sandwich bread (The Perfect Loaf)

Puttanesca sauce (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)

Turkey spaghetti (Meal Prep in an Instant)

The Empties:

Jar of applesauce
Can of baking powder
Head of broccoli
Two pound bag of frozen broccoli
Two pound bag of carrots
Five pound bag of carrots
Box of chicken broth
Jar of corn starch
Dozen eggs
Head of garlic
Container of Greek yogurt
Bag of frozen green beans
Head of iceberg lettuce
Fresh lemon
Half gallon of milk
Gallon of milk
Rice flour
Box of spaghetti
Twenty-eight ounce can of whole tomatoes
Pound of ground turkey
Bottle of Worcestershire sauce

What went to waste:
   

Some of the whey leftover from making mozzarella. I saved most of it, but goodness, a gallon of whey is a lot to even try to save!

Sunday, August 10, 2025

Real Life Marriage: We Stress Each Other Out!



"Who in your life causes you the most stress? What do they do that causes it?" The couples connection questions asked. I tried to caveat my answers. I tried to add nuance. Nevertheless, my answer remained: my husband. He is the person I care most about in the world. He is the one person from I really cannot separate myself. Boundaries be had or not, he stresses me out!

I wondered what my husband would say when he answered the questions. Honestly, waiting for him to answer made me a little nervous. Eventually, he gave me a smirk and I was pretty sure I knew his answer.

"Me?" I asked.

"Yes," he replied. And he nuanced his answer a little bit too. "I think anybody who is married would answer the same way," he said (or something like that).

I know I am a lot to put up with. I am my own ball of stress and nerves, and I know that affects my husband. I don't try to be a pain in the neck, but I am. At times, I am not sure I am worth it, but at this point, my husband is committed, and he is a man of his word.

I was honestly somewhat relieved by his answer, though. The fact that I stress him out shows that he does care about me. The fact that he is not bothered by that fact is reassuring. I think I do stress him out, but on my side, it is more me stressing about him that is the stressor. My husband is low needs, and he would like me to do less (and tells me as much), but that is hard for me. I do care about his health and well-being and happiness, and I monitor it more than I do for anyone else. He is part of me. If we go with the biblical definition of one flesh, he is me. I want to take care of him. I want to take care of us. I want to take care of me.

So there you have it. My husband and I are each other's greatest stressors. I'm not proud of the sin that causes me to stress my husband, but I am thankful that he accepts that responsibility. On my side, I am thankful that I get to have a husband to be a stressor. Marriage is not a gift everyone gets. So, good or bad, for better or for worse, here's to stress, and to maybe learning to stress less as God grows and matures us in our marriage.