Monday, September 15, 2025

The Answer



The answer isn't more hate. The answer isn't more love. The answer is Jesus. Full-stop. Period. End of story. Only Jesus can put to death hostilities by nailing them to the cross (Eph 2:16). Only Jesus can rectify and redeem all the injustices of the world. Only Jesus can save.

Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6). Jesus is the Savior. Jesus is the answer. He's where I am putting all my hope.

Saturday, September 13, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 37)

  

The Eats:

Asian chicken "stir fry" with ramen (Meal Prep in an Instant)-frozen for the future

Banana oatmeal bites (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Cozy white beans and greens soup (How Sweet Eats)

Easy buttermilk cornbread (Cafe Delites)

Easy gravy (Health My Lifestyle)

Healthy banana brownies (The Conscious Plant Kitchen)

Homemade ketchup without sugar (A Sweet Pea Chef)-Frozen for future use

Honey garlic chicken bowls (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Instant Pot apple cider (Real Food Deals)

Peach and strawberry cobbler (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)

Sourdough discard rosemary salt bagels (This Jess Cooks)

Southwest breakfast casserole (Meal Prep in an Instant)

The Empties:

Avocado
A whole cantaloupe
Five pound bag of carrots
Box of chicken broth
Fresh corn on the cob
Bag of frozen corn
Container of Greek yogurt
Head of iceberg lettuce
Bunch of kale
The rest of that half gallon of milk that soured
Mushrooms
Can of onion powder
Quinoa
Fresh peaches
Jar of Costco peanut butter
Two pound bag of frozen peas
Orange bell pepper
Five pound bag of potatoes
Can of pumpkin
Red bell pepper
Box of ramen
Head of romaine lettuce
Frozen sourdough protein pancakes with whole wheat (For the Pleasure of Eating)
Bag of baby spinach
Can of tomato paste
Fifteen ounce can of tomato sauce 

What went to waste:
   

A peach that rotted from the inside out--I wanted to try to salvage it, but could not bring myself to it.

A clove of garlic rotted?

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

Real Life Marriage: I Want You to Have Nice Things!



I balked when my husband wanted to buy me a Mac laptop. He had already bought me a (cheaper) Dell laptop, but when the screen broke within a year, he insisted on buying me a higher quality product. I don't like spending lots of money. I don't like spending lots of money on me. Though I am high maintenance emotionally, I think I pride myself on being lower maintenance when it comes to things, or at least I thought I was.

My husband insisted on buying the Mac laptop, and inside of fighting him, I decided to submit and let him do it. I had a sense that if I fought him, I'd end up continually frustrated with my broken Dell (which would adversely affect him), or inevitably end up with another device that would last a short amount of time and then check out on us.

Many years past that point, I am really thankful he bought me the Mac. I have taken it on trips. I have used it for hours without power. I have watched videos and uploaded tons of photos. I took it on our cruise. It has held up. I am so thankful!

I rarely get a chance to buy nice things for my husband, but I have been asking him for a while if I could help him buy some better running shoes. Several years into my shoe journey, I have found that shoes make a big difference, and I wanted my husband to experience the difference, too! While he did not exactly let me pick out his new shoes, he did end up settling on a brand and model that I have and enjoy, and that made me very happy! As he received his shoes and started asking me questions about them, I felt joy swell inside me. And I thought, I think I am starting to get it. When you love someone, you want them to have nice things!

Nice things are not always feasible. There are many things I would like to buy my husband that do not fit into the budget. When we get the opportunity to help each other have nice things though, there is a lot of joy in that. Maybe rejoicing in nice shoes is a sign of getting older, but hey, it is love in all its glory, and I will take it!

Saturday, September 6, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 36)


The Eats:

Banana oatmeal bites (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Best gravy (Brand New Vegan)

High protein Mexican street corn pasta salad (Rachl Mansfield)

Low country boil (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)

Oat bagels (Oats Everyday)

Pumpkin protein muffins (The Clean Eating Couple)

Sourdough discard bagels (Farmhouse on Boone)

Sourdough discard strawberry bagels (This Jess Cooks)

Strawberry chia jam (My PCOS Kitchen)

Strawberry muffins (Hummusapien)

Tuna cakes (Just is a Four Letter Word)

The Empties:

Package of andouille sausage
Jar of applesauce
Bag of cheese sticks
Cilantro
A dozen eggs
Container of Greek yogurt
Green onions
Honeydew melon
Head of iceberg lettuce
Lemon
Old onions (some chopped and frozen for later use)
Plums
Can of pumpkin (yes, 'tis the season!)
Head of romaine lettuce
Bottle of lime juice
Half gallon of milk
Frozen onion
Orange bell pepper
Plums
Five pound bag of potatoes
Bottle of pumpkin pie spice
Red bell pepper
Two pounds of shrimp
Bag of split peas
Bottle of dried thyme
Pound of ground turkey
Two cans of tuna
Bottle of vegetable oil
Zatarain's crawfish, shrimp, & crab boil in a bag

What went to waste:
   

A few leaves of the iceberg lettuce that browned, but overall, no major loss!

The end of our second half gallon of milk soured, but I will try to use it up if I can!

Sunday, August 31, 2025

Everything I Read in August


Once again this month, I was a slower reader and more of an audiobook listener, but...I did fit in some good end of summer books. I am proud of myself and thankful for that. Here's what I listened to and read this month:

70) Street God by Dimas Salaberrios with Dr. Angela Hunt—Think of this book as a modern Run Baby, Run meets Cross and the Switchblade! Written in his own words, this is the story of Dimas Salaberrios, a middle class youth born to unmarried parents, who started dealing drugs at age 11, went on to be a big kingpin, and then came to Jesus. I listened to this as an audiobook while running, and honestly, I am not sure I could have read it, because it was intense. I am talking about very violent experiences, hard drugs, demon possession, and exorcism. Dimas talks about his "trial and error" sanctification, his overseas missions, his church planting under Tim Keller, and more. This is a true, "come to Jesus" book, charismatic and convicting, about a man who wanted to become a street God, and instead took God to the streets. I am unclear what Salaberrios is doing now, but his story is a testimony worth hearing or reading!

71) The Best Summer of Our Lives by Rachael Hauck- With four main characters and times alternating between 20 years in the past and the present, it took me a little bit to get into the story, and then a little while longer to get people and places straight (or at least mostly). After that, I was engrossed in the story of the Four Seasons (Spring, Summer, Autumn, and Snow), best friends relegated to serve as counselors at Camp Tumbleweed the summer before their transition into college. When they couldn't have the best summer of their lives, they vowed to give their campers the best summer of theirs. Along the way, they faced lies, truths, spiritual questions, and even some danger. The author weaves the story together in truly heartwarming ways, and with literary devices that I can only attribute to writing genius. She does it all while pointing to the constant, never-ending friendship of Jesus, too. I think this truly is the best book I have read all summer!

72) The Song by Chris Fabry—Think of this as Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers, but where the male character is the struggling one. Based off the movie by the same name (which I have not seen), this is the story of Jed King, son of musician David King, a man who vows to forgo his father's sins, but then falls right back into them. Parts of the story seem a little bit cheesy (like the names), and I would say the plot's crisis resolves a bit too quickly. Overall, though, the book was poignant and powerful. I especially appreciated the almost seamless integration of passages from Ecclesiastes, Proverbs, and Song of Solomon. Not exactly a biblical retelling, but a story that incorporates biblical truth, this is a story I enjoyed reading. It is edgy, but not inappropriate, and ultimately testifies to the power of God's love and redemption, songs all believers need sung over them again and again.

73) Let’s All Be Brave: Living Life with Everything You Have by Annie F. Downs—This is classic Annie F. Downs writing: personal, easy to read, entertaining and poignant. In this book, written from various coffee shops around the world, Downs shares moments when she had to be brave in her life. She was brave when she stayed to work at a college campus ministry, brave when she packed up and moved to Nashville, and then to Scotland, and back. She shares her reticence to take these brave steps and testifies to how God supported her all along the way. She challenges readers to take courage from God, be brave, and do the next right thing. Although I did not find anything in this book earth-shatteringly unique, I did find the book prompting of some introspective thought. With as quickly and easily as this book's pages passed, I would say it is worth a few days to read this book and get encouraged about living bravely from a woman who has done it herself, many times over.

74) Under Pressure: Confronting the Epidemic of Stress and Anxiety in Girls by Lisa Damour, Ph.D.—Stress is not bad, but too much of it is. In this book, psychologist Dr. Lisa Damour explores the rising sources of stress for girls, and the anxiety that can result. Not all anxiety is bad, she states, but it is bad when it become overwhelming and paralyzing. Covering issues like academics, gender, and stress, Damour uses composite stories to bring to life to the struggles of girls, along with her clinical expertise about how to handle these issues. Written for the every person 
(though I listened to this book via audio), and perhaps every parent, this book documents the role that adults have in helping normalize everyday stress and reduce pathological stress. The end goal is to help girls face stress well, bravely, because under pressure, carbon produces diamonds. 

75) Freefall to Fly: A Breathtaking Journey to a Life of Meaning by Rebekah Lyons—Rebekah Lyons thought that moving to New York City with her family would be an adventure. Instead, it became a freefall into anxiety, and a search for meaning. In the end, she learned about surrender and trust in God. Although I didn't agree with quite everything Lyons writes, and don't think that everyone has the luxury of freefalling to find purpose, I think it is valuable to think about who God made me to be and surrendering to it. This book is both personal and philosophical, convicting and compassionate. I enjoyed listening to the audiobook of it.

76) 
On a Summer Tide by Suzanne Woods Fisher—I had a hard time getting into this book. I dipped my toe in, but then it was just slow swimming. Paul Grayson spends his retirement income to buy Three Sisters Island and Camp Kicking Moose, the place where he met his wife. He hopes to enlist the help of his three daughters: Camden (Cam), Maddie, and Blaine, but they aren't having it, until they get to the island and sense some of its charm. There are some sub-characters and subplots that really deserve some mention: Captain Ed and his lobster, Peg Legg and her restaurant/store, schoolteacher Seth Walker, and Cam's son Cooper and his ball of string. When I step back and look at the book from that angle, it really is well crafted. It also has sweet lessons about family, forgiveness, and love. I would say that the tide had pulled me in by story's end, but then getting the next book required a hold. Will I read more in this series or will the waters ebb out before the next book comes in? We shall see....

77) Becoming Free Indeed: My Story of Disentangling Faith From Fear by Jinger Vuolo with Corey Williams—Jinger Vuolo grew up a Duggar, indoctrinated into abiding by the tenets of the Institute of Basic Life Principles (IBLP), as taught by Bill Gothard. Then she and her sister Jessa married godly men who encouraged them to seek understanding of God through the Bible, and that changed everything. In this book, Vuolo unpacks lies that she believed under Gothard and biblical truths that set her free. She bravely shares the fear-based religion she practiced under Gothard and how she has disentangled her faith from it, rather than deconstructing her faith. This book reads more like a devotional than a tell-all and is filled with Scripture. I applaud Vuolo for writing it and pray that she and others who grew up under the IBLP continue to find freedom through faith in the Jesus of the Bible.

78) Shoe Dog: A Memoir by the Creator of Nike by Phil Knight—Not quite a memoir, not totally a business book; part story and part philosophy, this is Phil Knight’s tale of building Nike. From being a boomerang kid with a master’s degree and an interest in war history, to a world traveler who started Blue Ribbon shoes somewhat on a whim, to building his company, Knight sure had a ride, and not without challenges. He nearly went bankrupt several times. He endured lawsuits. He had enemies. He admits time and time again that he worked too hard and didn’t give his family enough time. This was an engaging read, but also one that saddened me some, in that it reads like Ecclesiastes, pointing to all the important, but meaningless toil it takes to build a business. In the end, Knight writes about trying to find meaning, but it rings hollow. Though the Alberto Salazar controversy (and other mistreatment of Nike athletes) keeps me from being a fan of the brand, this book does give me empathy for Phil Knight, as well as respect. He built an empire, even if it’s one of shoes that will, in the end, fall.

79) On a Coastal Breeze by Suzanne Woods Fisher—The hold came in pretty quick, so I continued reading about Paul, Cam, Blaine, and Maddie Grayson as they navigate life on Three Sisters Island. There are really meaningful parts of the story, about fear and forgiveness and love. Cam and Seth finally figure things out. Maddie resolves some pain from the past with the arrival of childhood classmate Ricky O'Shea. Blaine continues to search for meaning. I liked the story, and somehow it still seemed to lack some nuance and death. I plan to read the third book, but I am just really not sure what I think of this author/series.

80) Getting Good at Being You: Learning to Love Who God Made You to Be By Lauren Alaina—I was not sure about this book when I started listening to it, as it seemed to be all about self-love. As the book went on, however, I came to enjoy learning Alaina's (runner-up on American Idol) story. She wraps up the book well, too, encouraging people to serve others and be who God made them to be. Read by the author, this was an enjoyable (reasonably) short audiobook that left me with some feel-good feelings.

Saturday, August 30, 2025

Strong(er) in August



No pull-up gains this month, but I did go up one more pound in the dumbbells I used for strength training. No, it is not a lot, but it is something, and I will take it. Although I still an't do a pull-up, I think I might be gaining a little bit of strength, as push-ups seem a little bit easier, and like I am doing them more fully. I have committed to eating more protein in this season, but it is just hard to gain muscle when I am training to gain strength to hit my running goals.

On the running front, I did switch to a new training plan this season. I bought the 30 day core challenge from Run to the Finish and have been working through it instead of doing my daily physical therapy exercises. I have had the return of some foot pain, though, so after this 30 days I am likely to return to what works. With the heat and my strength, I am not hitting the prescribed paces in my new training plan, but I am trying and that takes some mental strength. I will take it and thank God for it.

Our marriage weathered another air conditioning outage this month. Thankfully, my husband is just working one job this time. (Our air went out three years ago when he was also in school.) It was not pleasant, but we survived (in part thanks to my hairdresser, who loaned us their portable swamp cooler). We continue with our devotions, and we have even fit in a few fun date days (a culinary day and a paint by numbers day). Quality time helps fill my love tank, which gives me more bandwidth to weather trials like the air conditioning outage. An addition to our Sunday routine has been couples yoga or stretching after our walk around town. That has been a fun way to connect, and I think that having fun together also strengthens our marriage.

Spiritually, I am sticking with my same routine. I am not sure if that makes me stronger or just maintains strength. Either way, I will take it.

I guess that is the theme of stronger this month: I will take it. While the limits of my strength are finite, God's are infinite, and for that I praise God and look forward to the next month of growing stronger in the life that He has given me.

Eats and Empties (Week 35)



The Eats:

Easy honey buns-adapted from an Instagram recipe I saw here with honey glaze (Simply TaraLynn)

Hummus for us (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker) 

Sourdough pizza (The Perfect Loaf)

The Empties:

Five pound bag of carrots
Costco container of cinnamon
Dijon mustard
Carton of a dozen eggs
Two containers of Greek yogurt
Jar of mayonnaise
Half gallon of milk
Jug of olive oil
Bag of Parmesan cheese
Old container of pea protein powder
Five pound bag of potatoes
Nectarines
Head of romaine lettuce
Homemade mozzarella cheese (Simmer and Sage)
Two 28 ounce cans of crushed tomatoes
Two cans of tomato paste
Box of rotini pasta
Twenty-eight ounce can of whole tomatoes
Pound of ground turkey
All that whey from last week

What went to waste:
   

Just a bit of some iceberg lettuce, but we composted it!