Monday, October 20, 2025

Nationwide Children's Columbus Half-Marathon

How I Decided on the Race

I registered for this half-marathon long before I ran the Bay Bridge. Fresh off my first marathon and fastest 10K, I was hungry for more. I had also started entertaining the idea of running out of state. Knowing that this half-marathon supported the hospital that served my best friend's baby (now a preschooler) made me want to run it more. The only problem I saw was that the race was around on my bestie's anniversary, ironically the last time I was in Ohio. When I approached my friend about the race, she was enthusiastically supportive. "No problem," she said, and so February 22nd, I registered for the Nationwide Children's Hospital Columbus half marathon.

The Training

At the time of registering, I thought I wanted to go for a sub 1:50 half, given that my last finish was 1:52:52. I downloaded Run to the Finish's 1:45 plan and thought I would go with it. Well, I got my 1:45 at Bay Bridge, but still decided on this plan. It was more miles a week and more speed work than I had done before, so I thought it would be a good fit.

Spoiler alert: An October race meant training through the summer. Thankfully I did all right, at least in terms of surviving the heat. I sweated A LOT, but with enough hydration, salt, and showers, it was bearable. What I did not do was hit the paces prescribed in my plan, ever, that is until I pulled out my racing shoes on week 10/12. I finally got close, which was encouraging, but also humbling.

The Days Before the Race

I stuck with my three day carb load plan. As seems to be my pattern, the first day I was super hungry and enjoying all the carbs; day two, not so much. Day three, I was ready to be done! I ran one mile and walked and did yogalates Wednesday. I did a total of four miles Thursday (three with four strides). Saturday, I ran 3.1 miles and flew to Ohio.

My time table was tight on Saturday. I flew out at 9:55 AM, arrived at 4:35 PM, and had to get to the expo to get my bib by 6 pm. I pre-booked an Uber and everything worked out, but phew, it was stressful! Between the airport, the huge convention center, and a walk to the start line, I probably did a little bit too much, but que sera, sera. I laid out all my clothes, pinned my bib, took my flat runner photos, and tried to chill. I had a beautiful room in which to do so, and eventually got myself calmer. I was in bed around 9:05 and shut my phone off at 9:15 PM to hopefully allow for seven hours of sleep.

Race Morning:

I set my alarm for 4:30 am. By 4:45 AM or so, race corral opening was already delayed to 6:45 AM. That did not seem to bode well, so I delayed getting ready a bit. I went and refilled my water bottles. I read my Bible and some of Let Your Mind Run by Deena Kastor. I did my arm and leg PT. By 5:50 AM, I ate a bagel and drank coffee with RNWY. I left my room about 6:30 and arrived at the race start around 7 AM. It was already sprinkling, but I had tied grocery sacks over my shoes and wore a rain poncho. Immediately after finding my corral, I went to the porta-pottie line, did an 0.21 mile warm-up and lined up. I took my gel at 7:15 AM, only to have them delay the race start until 7:45 AM. Sigh on that nutrition timing. I took off the rain poncho and grocery sack shoe covers 5 minutes before the start.


Race Day Conditions:


The night before the race and when I got up, it looked like rain would start at 7 am. Sweet, I thought. At least I could walk to the start (0.5-1 mile away from my hotel) without getting wet. Then things got delayed. Sigh. I bagged my shoes, put on my poncho, and went for it. The rain was steady, but light, and at least the temperatures were warm. That helped a lot.

Goals:

As usual, I made my goals in reverse order-

A-Run the race.

B-Finish the race.

C-PR of 1:43

With all leading up to the race, and then how tight my flight was to even get into Ohio, I knew that getting to race day would be a huge blessing. With the rain and possible delays or cancellations, I just wanted to finish. I was not just running for me, but running for my friend and her daughter. That mattered a lot to me. If I could squeak in a PR, great! (Or at least that's what I told myself.) If I wanted to PR, I figured my splits would need to be

Miles 1-2 8:01/mile

Miles 3-4 7:51/mile

Miles 5-10 7:51/mile

Miles 11-12 Speed up if possible

Mile 13-13.1 Fast!

Course:

Miles 1-2 This truly is such a great course! The day started with the national anthem and fireworks. The streets were packed with people cheering, from the start to the finish. (The road was also packed with runners-more on that later.) There were ample porta-potties on course (which thankfully I did not need to use), plus plentiful water stations. Really well done, Columbus.

With such a packed course, I had to do a lot of bobbing and weaving (which you're not supposed to do, as it takes energy and adds distance). I also could never figure out which side of the road the water stations were on, which meant weaving through people to get there. I had not brought a hydration pack, so I needed the water. Mile 1 came in at 8:01/mile, and mile 2, at 7:57. Sweet.

Miles 3-4 I waited until mile 4 for a gel. That seemed to work well. It was raining, but not too bad. I hit 7:49/mile, dropping to 7:55/mile for mile (probably due to a hill).

Miles 5-10 Things started to fall apart a little here. I was not exactly out of energy or flat, but just feeling how long the race was and not wanting to push. My hat flew off once. I was on pace for miles 5 and 6 at 7:50/mile and 7:46/ mile, but then mile seven was 8:07/mile (maybe the second slow hill). Mile eight was good-7:50/mile, but even after another gel, mile 9 was 7:57/mile, and then my watch turned off. I got it back on, but am not sure of exact splits from there. What I do know is that I just had to somewhat race by feel.

Miles 11-12 It was not exactly miserable, but I started wanting to finish in here. I was able to drop the pace some. I caught up to and passed the 1:45 pacer, but not my much. I heard him from behind me for quite a while and if he was on pace, I knew that did not bode well for my 1:43 goal. I started coming into the finish area and tried to give it a little more gas even at the half mile to go mark. 


Mile 13-13.1 I told myself to open up, and I did, but then I started feeling light headed and nauseous, so I think I slowed down a bit. I saw the clock at 1:44:51 as I was coming through and hoped my chip time was faster. I was panting as I came over the line. I did not even see my friend watching.

After the race:

Again, this is a well set-up race. They moved finishers quite a bit down the line to get medals, gave out heat blankets (which I didn't think I did, but spoiler alert, I did!) and then moved us to food alley. I took a bag from the beginning, and man was I thankful for it! I got a bottle of water, a bottle of Propel, pizza, a bagel, a cookie, Oreos, two bags of chips, Boba oats, an apple, a banana, cheese sticks, and chocolate milk. Seriously, I just took one of everything. 

With the help of texting, I found my friend. I checked my time and was shocked to see a PR of 14 seconds in my 1:43:33 time. I was shocked! My friend asked if I wanted to go ring the PR gong, and that was so thoughtful, because yes, I did! I got us a bit turned around, but we got there. I rang the bell while she filmed, and then we convinced her daughter to ring it with me. That was really sweet, as I ran the race for that little girl. I stopped by the merchandise tent to get a 13.1 magnet, and then we went to get my gear check bag. I really could have skipped this. It was so far away from the starting chute, that gear check did not really help me. All I left was a protein bar and some extra garbage bags, but waste not, want not, so I grabbed it on our way out.

The plan was for my friend to drive me back to the hotel, but by the time we got to the parking garage, we figured it was better for me just to walk back to the hotel. I did that, but then I kind of stagnated. I turned on the heat for warmth and managed to get in more water and a protein bar, but I probably dawdled for about an hour before finally peeling off my wet clothes and getting into the shower. There I saw how really wet I was. My clothes were completely drenched, and even with wearing socks in my shoes, my feet with dirty. Yuck. That shower felt amazing, though!

I managed to get downstairs and checked out of my hotel. Finding my friend was another issue, as she could not get out of the garage, and then could not get to the hotel. I tried to walk towards her, but walked the wrong way. Eventually we caught up, but I was a little wet again. I always forget the work I put my friends and family through. My work is done at the end of a race, but that is where theirs begins!

Final thoughts:

I am sore after this race! I am not sure if it is how I sat in the car after the race, the race itself, or both. I felt some tightness in my hip flexors while running, but it was my quads and knee that felt it after the race. I went up and down stairs at my friends and was like, wow, I guess I worked harder than I thought? I also slept nine hours that night!

Overall, this race was what it set out to be: a fundraiser for the hospital, a race out of state, and a good reason chance to visit my best friend and her family. Yes, I missed my  goal by 33 seconds, but I still got a PR, and now maybe I have room to hit 1:43 in another race. Overall, I am just thankful: thankful for the opportunity, thankful the race happened, thankful to be with my friend, thankful for a body that lets me run. Columbus half-marathon dusted and done. Hallelujah!

Saturday, October 18, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 42)


The Eats:


Cinnamon roll granola (Salted Plains)

Instant Pot barley and vegetable risotto (Hot Rod's Recipes)

Jalapeno-cilantro stem marinade (Food 52)

Lentil sweet potato curry (Work Week Lunch)

Moroccan lentil soup (Tastes Better from Scratch)

Sesame noodles with wilted greens (Budget Bytes)

Sourdough discard protein bagels (This Jess Cooks)

Vegan potato "cheese" sauce (Forks Over Knives)

The Empties:

Barley
Frozen beef broth brown gravy (Creme de la Crumb)
Two pound bag of frozen broccoli
One pound bag of baby carrots
Celery
Old chia seeds
Frozen chickpeas
Cilantro
Family size box of chicken broth
Frozen chicken broth
Frozen chipotle peppers in adobo sauce
Two cans of coconut milk
Bag of coleslaw mix
Ginger root
Frozen instant Pot mac and cheese (Pinch of Yum)
Four jalapenos
Box of macaroni
Half gallon of milk
Box of fresh mushrooms
Frozen mushrooms
Old bag of onions
Frozen pesto cottage cheese pasta (Hummusapien)
Can of pumpkin
Head of romaine lettuce
Dry pinto beans
Red onion
Red pepper
Bottle of soy sauce
Bag of baby spinach
Sweet potatoes
Two cans of diced tomatoes
Can of fire roasted diced tomatoes
Box of tostada shells
A whole watermelon (it took us a few weeks, but we did it!)
Two zucchini

What went to waste:
   

Some garlic cloves that rotted

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

My Experience with 75 Soft


This is the first time I have done a lifestyle challenge/diet like this one. I have fasted for Lent. I have taken breaks from sugar. I have tried to eat clean, consume whole foods, etc. With this challenge, though, I did a lot of these things at once.

First of all, what even is 75 Soft? Well, it is a lighter version of Andy Frisella's (n.d.). 75 Hard. Frisella says 75 Hard is a mental toughness challenge, but really, it is is a diet (especially given the fact that all the pictures on his website are of people with body changes) (Page, 2022). As conceived by Frisella, the original challenge involves 75 days of drinking one gallon of water a day, following a diet, reading 10 pages of a nonfiction book, engaging in two 45-minute workouts (at least one outside), and taking daily progress photos (Peters & Duncan, 2025). One day of messing up means starting over. Frisella supposedly did this challenge to win a bet about losing body fat (Page). People now do it for all kinds of reason, and some are pretty die-hard about it.

I exercise a lot, but 45 minutes twice a day seemed unreasonable. A gallon of water felt like far too much for my size. Going into half-marathon training, I was not about ready to start a diet to lose weight (and also because I had no weight I wanted to lose). Enter 75 Soft.

The 75 Soft program is  an alternative to 75 Hard. With 75 Soft, there is a little more grace: only three liters of water, "permission" to engage in social meals, only one 45 minute workout a day (with the option of an active recovery or rest day), and "permission" to read any book (Cleveland Clinic, 2023). (I put "permission" in quotes because no one needs permission to do anything. Every person can make his or her own choices.) An off day does not require starting over. It just means bouncing back and continuing.

Why I did it. I came up with the idea to do 75 Soft after reading Jonathan Haidt's book The Righteous Mind. Getting through it was a challenge, but I felt so accomplished each day I got through more of my reading! How could I do more of this? I wondered. My husband had set a quarter goal of starting an exercise program. I thought maybe doing 75 Soft together would motivate both of us. When I proposed the, my husband asked why not 75 Hard. After listening to my reasons, he agreed to the softer version and really, by the end, we each had our own individual versions of the challenge.

My version of 75 Soft: For my 75 days, I decided to stick with the three liters of water, as even that meant adding about 40 ounces to my typical consumption. As stated earlier, I was not about to go on a restrictive diet, so instead, I upped my minimum carbs and protein intake and decided to try to get that increase from non-processed sources/whole food sources (i.e. without sugar). (I also worked to eat closer to the 30-90 minute after running instead of getting distracted and postponing my recovery meal.) I decided to go cold turkey and not take off days from the challenge, but that is really more about me and my personality than anything else. I am an "all-in" or "all-out" kind of person. I took progress photos just for kicks (more on that later). My experience was different than I expected.

The Surprises: Having not gone on a "crash" diet before, I was surprised to experience the "Last Supper" mentality. The "Last Supper" mentality is the urge to overeat before starting a restrictive diet (Cohen, 2021). For me, that looked like eating the rest of a bag of mini marshmallows the day before we started the challenge. I had been putting some in my hot chocolate every night, but on night zero when I realized I would not be eating sugar for a long time, I just decided to eat the rest of them. Waste not, want not, I reasoned. 

I had calculated out how much more water I needed to drink, and thought it would be easy given my increased hydration needs with running. What I did not realize was that 75 Hard rules say there can be nothing in that water (KakaoQueen, 2021). That meant that my hydration mixes, protein drinks, tea, etc. did not count towards my three liters (about 104 ounces). I figured out that if I drank a 40 ounce Thermoflask in addition to the 16 ounces of water I drink with every meal and snack, I could get there, though. To adequately fuel running, however, I had to find a way to get electrolytes, and without sugar or fake sugar. That last part proved to be a challenge, as most powdered mixes contain one or the other. Most salt tabs also have a sweetener in them. I thought I found an alternative salt tab only to realize about 75% through the challenge that it had artificial sweetener in it. Bummer!

We do not eat out much, or so I thought, but I guess we do so more than I think. Not having restaurants as an option (due to my no sugar and limit processed foods rules-things that are hard to control at restaurants) made date days and events with friends more challenging. We still did them, but I ended up taking my own food. I also hosted my husband's birthday dinner instead of meeting friends out for it, which is what I would have normally done.

The Benefits: Although I really do agree that 75 Hard is a diet, I can see why it is called a mental challenge, as I saw some mental benefits. As a go getter, I had wait to check off all of my goals until end of day, since the water and eating goals required a full day of work. That strengthened my ability to delay gratification. (It did feel empowering when I checked off my tasks, however.). Although I found myself in the bathroom at lot more with drinking so much water, I did find that my bowel habits were more regular (maybe TMI, but true), and my stomach felt better overall. When we experienced a heat wave due to broken air conditioning, my hydration and eating goals kept me on track for self care when all I wanted was to lay flat on the floor and cry. Seeing the stack of paper books I finished boosted my ego. By the end of the challenge, I was thinking less about tracking most of my tasks, as they had become habits (all except that three liters of water, which was the bane of my existence!). 

As as result of 75 Soft, I got more creative with dates and gifts for my husband. My husband and I started exercising together more, engaging in partner yoga and even a running event! I felt so proud of my husband as I watched him complete every step of the challenge. In these ways, 75 Soft grew our relationship. I would say the challenge was successful for these reasons

Takeaways: The 75 Soft challenge grew me. Eating extra protein was not as hard as I thought. I was reminded that whole food is good food. Although my body did not change (not the point, but I hoped maybe I could put on a little muscle, especially for those pull-up goals!), "progress" photos did show me some posture issues I can correct (like anterior pelvic tilt, which might be the source of some of my back pain). I read the most paper books I have read in a long time, maybe since middle school? Being creative with dates was good for our relationship.


Though more holistic than some diets, in and of itself, this challenge is definitely lacking in relational and spiritual components. I got the relational component by doing it with my husband, but I would argue that a true lifestyle challenge should include a relational part, especially given the loneliness epidemic. As a Christian, I think a spiritual discipline could be added. I do not think I will do this challenge again, but I could add those components if I wanted to do so.


I say I do not think I will do this challenge again because I learned what I think I needed. I got the benefits, and now I think I want to carry on in a less restricted, less regimented fashion. I also see the drawbacks. Restricting anything for me makes me want to swing to the other extreme, neither of which are good for me. As such, we went to eat ASAP after our 75 days finished. Now I am going into a carb-load for my half-marathon. Talk about extremes. I will be eating sugar and eating out again during planned upcoming travel. I think reading nonfiction books is beneficial, but I don't have room to keep buying and storing paper ones, so I plan to go back to e-books. And that water? Yeah, that is going to go. Half my body weight in ounces in sufficient for my intake. (Self-disclosure: I don't weight 208 pounds.) Three liters is just overkill. It is far more convenient to put my electrolytes in my water for running. I also enjoy drinking other beverages that got crowded out by the water. Oh, and not going to the bathroom so much might be nice!


Soft or not, this 75 day challenge was hard. I am glad we did it, but I am glad we are done. The end.


References:


Cleveland Clinic. (2023, November 13). The 75 soft challenge: When 75 hard is too much. https://health.clevelandclinic.org/75-soft-challenge


Cohen, G. (2021, July 8). The last supper syndrome. KaraLydon.com. https://karalydon.com/health-wellness/last-supper-syndrome/


Frisella, A. (n.d.). 75 hard. AndyFrisella.com. https://andyfrisella.com/pages/75hard-info?srsltid=AfmBOoob8Io2QNZ5X6_n-9BWRpW45yr8L1Tc9LxClZWqNesAsdkJuQdk


KakaoKween. (2021). Can coffee and tea count as part of the 1 Gallon of “water” goal? Thinking of starting soon and the [Online forum post]. Reddit. https://www.reddit.com/r/75HARD/comments/njie6x/can_coffee_and_tea_count_as_part_of_the_1_gallon/


Page, M. (2022, December 14). 75 hard - Is it worth it? (No. 35) [Audio podcast episode]. In Seems like diet culture. https://liveunrestricted.mykajabi.com/podcasts/seems-like-diet-culture-2/episodes/2147834412


Peters, T. & Duncan, T.A. (2025, September 25). What Is 75 hard? The ‘mental toughness’ program is delivering drastic results — but is it safe? Today. https://www.today.com/health/diet-fitness/75-hard-challenge-rcna153979

Saturday, October 11, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 41)

The Eats:

Beef broth brown gravy (Creme de la Crumb)

The best sourdough protein pumpkin bread (Unexpected Gardener)

Pumpkin bagels (Healthy and Delicious)

Sourdough discard oatmeal breakfast cookies (The Farm Style by Kayla Zenner)

Sourdough pumpkin muffins (Mel's Kitchen Cafe)

Sweet potato lentil soup (From My Bowl)

Tostadas (Budget Bytes)

The Empties:

Avocado
Container of beef broth
Five pound bag of carrots
Family size box of chicken broth
Frozen chicken broth
Container of cottage cheese
Twenty five pound bag of flour
Container of Greek yogurt
Jalapeno
Two bags of frozen green beans
Half gallon of milk
Can of pumpkin
Old bag of onions
Radishes
Snack box of raisins
Bag of baby spinach
Frozen vegetarian chili (Meal Prep in an Instant)

What went to waste:
   

A little bit of sweet potato went bad, but I cut it off and carried on

Friday, October 10, 2025

Real Life Marriage: More is More


During premarital counseling, our pastor provided us with this chart. To do hard things, he said, your marriage has to be in a good place. I took a picture of that chart, and to this day, have kept it on my phone.

I think there is sometimes a misconception in the church that we should be able to do everything in the power of God. It's hard? Push through? Limited resources? Push through? Marriage in a rough place? Just trust in God and He'll get you through. True, and not, at the same time.

As we have faced struggles in our lives, things that take the life out of us, I have found that we need more and more investment into our relationship. The same goes with service to others. The more we serve others, the more time we need to invest into us to keep our marriage solvent. It is counterintuitive in a way, that more is more, but it also makes sense. If we invest more, we can give more.

I will be honest and say that I tend towards stinginess, even in my marriage. I want more of my husband and struggle to share. At the same time, when the Holy Spirit convicts me, I am trying to choose to let myself, and us, be stretched for God's glory and the good of others. I find it easier to stretch, though, when our marriage is in a happy and full place.

So here's to more investment, more energy, my time, more love, so that we can give God's love away to others. We will never be able to fill ourselves on our own. Even that requires the power of God, but by God's grace, may we do it.

Saturday, October 4, 2025

Eats and Empties (Week 40)



The Eats:


5-minute refrigerator dill pickles (Tastes Lovely)

Garbage plates (Adventures of a Nurse)

Macaroni salad with Greek yogurt dressing (Menu Maid)

Oil free home fries (Mama Sezz)

Spaghetti squash lasagna boats 
(Meal Prep in an Instant)

Tuscan chicken pasta (Meal Prep in an Instant)

The Empties:

Jar of applesauce
Bag of baby spinach
Fresh basil
Five pound bag of carrots
Head of cauliflower
Two pound bag of cheddar cheese
Frozen cottage cheese
Frozen cozy white beans and greens soup (How Sweet Eats)
Container of dill
Carton of 18 eggs
Carton of grape tomatoes
Frozen gravy (Mayo Clinic)
Green pepper
Container of Greek yogurt
Three pounds of ground beef
Two pound bag of Italian cheese
Frozen lentil soup
Box of macaroni pasta
Half gallon of milk
Two pound bag of mozzarella cheese
Box of penne pasta
Package of pepperoni
Five pound bag of potatoes
Two cans of pumpkin
Head of romaine lettuce
Brown n' serve sausage
Frozen sourdough pizza crusts (The Perfect Loaf)
Spaghetti squash
Strawberry chia jam (My PCOS Kitchen)
Frozen Thin and crispy pizza (Budget Bytes)
Can of tomato paste
Frozen tomato paste

What went to waste:
   

A little bit of a sweet potato, but I saved the rest!

Tuesday, September 30, 2025

Everything I Read in September


I got in quite a few books this month, including three paper books and six audiobooks! I finished up a few books I had been in the middle of last month, and I got through the rest of the books my library had by my current favorite author Becky Wade. All in all, it was a good reading month! I am thankful!

81) At Lighthouse Cove by Suzanne Woods Fisher—I liked this book, until I did not. The book continues to follow the Grayson family as Cam and Maddie adjust to marriage, and as their father Paul runs Camp Kicking Moose. The youngest daughter Blaine returns from abroad, with a Parisian friend in two. Flashbacks peace together the story, and it seems more filled out, until it seems like the author might have run out of ideas, space, and time, because in one incident at the lighthouse, the story pretty much dead ends. While I am thankful for the opportunity to finish this series, I think I have reached the end of my reading from their author. Most of the rest of her books are about Amish country, too, which is not a particular interest of mine. Thanks for the summer reads, though!

82) You are Free: Be Who You Already Are By Rebekah Lyons—This is another spiritual memoir of sorts by author Rebekah Lyons. In it, she shares her journey to live out of her already free identity in Christ. She argues that confession is the path to freedom, and that freedom enables believers to serve and encourage others. While nothing in this book was particularly new or earth-shattering, it did remind me of the powerful truths in which I need to found myself. Additionally, the audiobook was a soothing devotional to pour over myself through listening during my day.

83) Memory Lane by Becky Wade—Islehaven, Maine artist Remy Reed spots a man floating in the ocean, and rescues him. Problem is, he does not remember who he is. This seems like a comic start to a story, but it is filled with intrigue and got me hooked. What follows is a story about fame, fortune, pain, power, love, and forgiveness. I thought I had the story figured out, only to see it go in a different direction, and then end with my identified guy being the true bad guy. This is an intense book—read the author's trigger warning on her website to make sure it won't bring up bad memories—but then if readers are up for a heady romance, mystery, and intrigue, pick this one up!

84) You Are the Girl For The Job: Daring to Believe The God Who Calls You by Jess Connolly—I have read several of Connolly's books now, and this one, like the others, is written in her endearing, encouraging, personal voice. In this book, Connolly acts as a cheerleader for believing in and following God's calling. She shares some of her story, while including lots of scriptural examples. While there is a little bit of health/wealth gospel flavor (if a person obeys, he or she will experience obedience), there is also a lot here about struggle and facing down fears because of belief in a big and powerful God. The concept that struck me ultimately, though, was this: “Knowing exactly what God wants us to do is not the aim of our life; worship is” (p. 180). While I want to be obedient to God, my ultimate job, as the Westminster Catechism puts it, is to “glorify God and enjoy him forever.” Connolly's book encourages me towards that end.

85) She Deserves Better: Raising Girls to Resist Toxic Teachings on Sex, Self, & Speaking Up by Sheila Wray Gregoire, Rebecca Gregoire Lindenbach and Joanna Sawatsky—If readers want to read a book that will ruffle feathers, this one will! Written to Christian moms, it is really a book for all women raised by the church to be "small." The authors speak out very strongly against blaming girls and women for male struggles (eg lust, pornography, sexual assault, etc.). They argue for strengthening women and their faith, and letting men be accountable for their own issues. Why will this book ruffle feathers? Well, because it names many prominent Christian publications and explains how they have harmed women (eg Brio magazine, I Kissed Dating Goodbye, And the Bride Wore White, Every Woman's Battle, Every Man's Battle, etc.) While I am not sure I agree with everything in the book, I think its concepts demand some consideration (and it is based on survey research). The questions and exercises for moms and daughters are helpful, too. Ultimately, instead of blaming girls for male stumbling, the church needs Christian discipleship for all, boys and girls. That is better, not just for girls, but for all members of the church, because the way the church treats women is not just a girls issue, but a corporate issue.

86) Counting the Cost: A Memoir by Jill Duggar with Derick Dillard and Craig Barlase—Another audiobook down! Yes, I might be slightly preoccupied with the Duggar stories (having read several now, as well as several other books from the IBLP movement). I have some skin in the game, though, having gone to college near this family and had friendships with people part of this movement. I recognized a lot from this story: the setting, the surroundings, sadly even some of the teachings. Reading this book alongside She Deserves Better helped me see some of lies involved in religious sects that set lots of rules for women in order to “help the men behave,” sects like the one in which Jill grew up. Jill's particular story opened my eyes to the inner workings of the Duggar family, how the show impacted it, and the burdens borne by the Duggar children. It seems to me that riches and the sexual abuse scandal involving Jill's brother Josh were the ultimate corrupters of the family. All hope is not lost, though, as in the epilogue, Jill points out a lot of good things about her upbringing. Although Jill counted the costs and got out of being a “filming family,” she still loves her family and wants to be part of it. She writes that she is working on healing her relationship with family and looks forward to that ultimate end.

87) Stay with Me by Becky Wade—Genevieve Woodward is part of the “Miracle Five” youths who survived an earthquake, and she has spent her life trying to “pay God back” for saving her, first as a Bible study writer and teacher, and then in every other area of her life. The problem is that she is floundering, and now using Oxycontin to try to survive. Sam Turner, meanwhile, is trying to control his circumstances so that he doesn't have a repeat of his past. When he walks into the cottage on his farm and finds Genevieve asleep there in a hungover stupor, the facade starts to crumble. Meanwhile, Genevieve's parents are hiding secrets, and someone is out to get the family and their reputation, or at least their letters say so. This is a masterfully written story including romance, murder, intrigue, and truth. It testifies of the power of transparency, forgiveness, and the grace that comes and stays when those are present. While some might need to read this story with caution, due to its content, this is a story I am thankful to have read, and one that will definitely stay with me long after reading.

88) In Every Pew Sits a Broken Heart: Hope for the Hurting by Ruth Graham with Stacy Mattingly—Though she is the daughter of legendary evangelist Billy Graham, Ruth Graham’s life has been anything but legendary. Instead, it has been full of brokenness and hurt. After discovering her husband’s infidelity, she went through several divorces, as well as serious issues with her children (bulimia, teen pregnancy, and drug use). She tried to seek the Lord, but still made mistakes. In this book, Graham chronicles the everlasting love of God, family, and friends that sustained (and sustains her). Part memoir, part self-help, this is a testimony to the brokenness that faces all people, children of famous Christians or not. It is both said and encouraging to hear Graham’s story, and I admire her honesty and vulnerability in telling it.

*I’m not sure this is the whole book, as the end of the audiobook says it was “condensed” from the original book.

89) Dancing Through Life: Steps of Courage and Conviction by Candace Cameron Bure and Erin Davis—First on Full House, and then an actress in numerous movies, and finally, a contestant on Dancing with the Stars. This is Candace Cameron Bure's tale of her experience, and what it both revealed and taught her about the Christian life. I enjoy listening to the audiobook of Bure telling about her struggles with the judgement of others and how she made decisions that felt most obedient to the Lord. The appendices of this book instruct readers about how to find a biblical church and good Bible studies. All in all, this was a solid book that both gives a window into Bure and her life, but also what it means to live with courage and conviction as a public figure.

90) From Good to Grace: Letting Go of the Goodness Gospel by Christine Hoover—This book was not everything I hoped it would be. It was a solid presentation of how the goodness gospel infiltrated the author's life, and how she learned to receive God's righteousness and live out of it, rather than striving to be “good enough.” Why was this book not everything I hoped? I hoped for some big aha moment, but what I found instead was reminder of the truth I *should* know, that I am saved by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). For this reason, the book was a good read, one I, and probably a lot of other perfectionists like me, need.

91) Point of View: A Fresh Look at Work, Faith, and Freedom by Elisabeth Hasselbeck—Elisabeth Hasselbeck went from a walk on softball player at Boston College to a shoe designer at Puma, then a contestant on Survivor, and finally, a big name player in conservative broadcasting (as a member of The View and later a Fox News commentator). This book details much of her adult journey: what she learned about faith and God along the way, and how she learned to work with people whose views differed greatly from her own. I enjoyed listening to the Hasselbeck narrate her own story in the audiobook and appreciated both her vulnerability and honesty. Though Hasselbeck was not familiar to me before this book, she is apparently pretty famous, at least from the names she names. She is humble about it, though, and writes about learning to like people over politics and being right with people over being right. She truly does have something to say, which made Point of View not just enjoyable, but applicable, too.

92) Rocky Road by Becky Wade—FBI Agent Jude Camden has a secret op: to act Perfumer Gemma Clare’s boyfriend and intercept Gemma’s cousin selling trade secrets. He isn’t supposed to have any real interest in Gemma, but he can't help but be attracted to her. Gemma, meanwhile, is trying to keep her business going and solve the mystery of her grandma’s love story. This is a sweet book, rocky road ice cream freezer raids and all. It also has mystery, intrigue, a little danger, and some historical references. Through it all, the author focuses on grace and learning to give it to self and others. I throughly enjoyed running down the road of this story a wish the library has the last book in this series!

93) Serenity in the Storm: Living Through Chaos By Leaning on Christ by Kayleigh McEnany—After everything that has happened of late, I thought I might should catch up on some cultural issues. That I did through this audiobook. Though I appreciated the biblical perspectives McEnany presented, I think she went into too much gruesome details about things like war crimes and partial birth abortion. I can believe those things are wrong without knowing all the gory details. Additionally, though I found McEnany to be tactful in her writing, I also found some of her discussions to lack nuance. It is not surprising that McEnany is biased towards the right. She was Donald Trump’s press secretary. I guess I hoped for a more biblical, less political book, but alas, this is not that. Read if you like, but this was not the book for me.

94) Running with Joy: My Daily Journey to the Marathon by Ryan Hall—Mostly training log, with reflections on each day of running, this is Ryan Hall's story of preparation for the 2010 Boston Marathon where he took fourth. Though I am a runner, the immense miles of a pro runner did not interest me. Hall's vulnerability about his struggles with comparison and trying to find his identity in God, however, resonated. This book was easy to read, so for me as a runner, it was worth the time spent. I look forward to reading Hall's second book, Run the Mile You're In next.

95) Let It Be Me by Becky Wade—Leah Montgomery's two ambitions are to get her brother through high school and go to Princeton to get her PhD, a goal she put on hold to raise her brother when her mother went off gallivanting around the world. A little bit of a control freak, Leah is determined to give her brother what she never had: stability. Meanwhile, Dr. Sebastian Grant, one of the Miracle Five who survived an earthquake, is determined to not get too attached, to never love and lose again like he did with his mother, who died when he was young, leaving him in the foster system. The two met in book one of this series, after Sebastian had an automobile wreck. They reconnect at Leah's school, and then when Leah needs help researching her medical files. This is a book about identity, trust, forgiveness, and love that chooses to stay. While a few parts struck me as a little unbelievable, I appreciated the overall sentiment of the book, found a few plot surprises, and overall enjoyed reading.

96) Turn to Me by Becky Wade—In this conclusion to the Misty River series, the last and most aloof of the Miracle Five Luke Dempsey gets out of prison. He planned to build a cabin in Montana and recluse there, but first he has a promise to keep. Little did he know that keeping the promise would mean working at an animal rescue for beautiful Finley Sutherland. He says he is there to keep a promise to her father to keep her safe during her birthday treasure hunt. She is on a secret mission to “rehabilitate him.” What follows is healing for both of them: Finley from her fear, and Luke from his guilt. Along the way, readers get to see conclusions to relationships started in the first two books, and a change at love for Ben Coleman. While this was not my favorite series of Wade's, it is perhaps the most redemptive and Christ centered. It's got all the elements of a good page-turner: murder, love, mystery, and suspense, but also sustenance. I think it's worth a read.