Friday, July 31, 2026

Everything I Read in July

Did I want to read more this month? Yes. Did I do it? No. So did I really want to read more this month? I don't know. What I do know is that I chose (or just did) other things with my time. I played more word games on my phone. I did a lot of Spanish lessons in DuoLingo. I caught up on podcasts, rather than listening to audiobooks. The books I did read, I read more slowly as I took more notes and spent time learning. I lived my life and fit reading in where it fit, rather than trying to wedge reading into every nook and cranny. It worked, and I need to give thanks for being able to read this much.

This month, I read (or finished reading, as in the first book) a lot of books that really hit home for my age and stage of life:

102. Surrendering Hunger by Jan Johnson—I started this devotional in March, as I sought to pass less judgement on what seemed to me to be extreme hunger. The devotional is based on the author’s struggle with both over and under eating. While I do not necessarily agree with her 12 step-type approach to managing eating issues, there was a lot here about eating in moderation, surrendering control, asking for help, finding identity in Christ, etc. In a culture obsessed with looks (especially for females), this was a helpful read, and came at a time in which I really benefited from it.

103. The Irish Matchmaker by Jennifer Deibel—Once again, this is a wonderfully crafted story by new-to-me author Jennifer Deibel. Donal Bonratty is unsuccessfully trying to hold everything together as a farm owner and single father who recently lost his wife. His daughter, little Sara, is beyond wise for her years and constantly encourages him to have faith. Catriona Daly, meanwhile, is a local matchmaker trying to control not only the fate of those who seek out her services, but also her own destiny. This is a beautiful story of friendship, faith, sacrificial love, and community support. With both highs and lows, as well as laughable quips from little Sara, this is certainly a book worth reading!

104. The New Perimenopause: An Evidence-Based Guide to Surviving the Zone of Chaos and Feeling Like Yourself Again by Mary Claire Haver, MD—At face value, this book is a strong argument for menopause hormone treatment, even for women in perimenopause, or the time before menopause. In reading the book from to back, though, I actually learned a lot about this season of life and aging. While it might be a “zone of chaos,” hormonally, it is also a window of opportunity to improve health and reinstate healthy practices. As I seek to rebuild after injury, this is a good mentality for me to have. While I might not go on hormone therapy, or follow Haver’s Galveston Diet, I can do things like focus on eating good, whole foods; lifting heavy to build bone density; and advocating for personalized care (something sorely lacking in this season of life, and for women particularly). While I am not sure I would recommend this book to everyone, it was helpful for me where I am at, so I am glad I read it.

105. Home to You by Cheryl Woolverton—Pastor Dakota “Cody” Ryder finds a strange woman on his doorstep, stirring up the town gossip mill (as well as bringing his mother back to town). He is not about to turn the woman away, though. And then he learns that this is not just any woman; this is his childhood friend Meghan O’Halleran. She has returned because she literally has nowhere else to go. This story has a few too many subplots, which made it a little hard to follow, but it was still a good read. I wouldn’t list it at the top of my book list, but for a lay-around-at home-and-read-a-story-with some meaning-novel, it is decent.

106. Big Friendship: How We Keep Each Other Close by Aminatou Sow and Ann Friedman hosts of the podcast Call Your Girlfriend—I put this book on hold from the library after reading about it in the April 5 episode of The Skimm. Though I had never listened to the Call Your Girlfriend podcast, something about the book appealed to me. Part human interest story, with bite-sized bits of research woven in, this is story of how Aminatou, a black woman, and Ann, a white woman, became fast friends, and maintained their friendship over a span of years. This book covers The Shine Theory they use to support each other (and other friends), the need to work through conflict as friends, and how they maintain commitment to their friendship through years and distance. Written in third person, I found this a compelling read that shone light on and normalized some of my current friend struggles in midlife. Though not for everyone, this book was good for me right here, right now.


107. The Maid of Ballymacool by Jennifer Deibel—This is the last Jennifer Deibel book at our library, and a powerful one at that! Part Irish history, part modern-day Cinderella story, this is the Maid Brianna Kelly, headmistress Maureen Magee, and Michael Wray, a local gentryman who starts to uncover the unseemly things happening within Ballymacool House and Boarding School. This novel pretty much has it all: mystery, heartbreak, intrigue, love, and great messages about significance and identity. Jennifer Deibel is a truly gifted author, and I will be looking for her next book!

108. Dancing with Max: A Mother and Son Who Broke Free by Emily Colson [Audiobook]—This was a sweet book! With a forward and afterward by Chuck Colson of Breakpoint, this is not just the story of a single mom and her autistic son. It is the story of the community that surrounded them and upheld them. It is a story of the gifts Max's autism give to his family and friends. I recommend this book not only for families of children with special needs, but for everyone. Everyone can all benefit more from increasing understanding, not of disabilities per se, but through through freeing themselves from the view that diagnoses are detriments, and instead, that they provide openings into understanding God and people better. The audio recording of Max singing, "I Can Do All Things" at the end is especially sweet, so I recommend listening versus reading if you can!

109. This Must Be The Place: Following the Breadcrumbs of Your Past to Discover Your Purpose Today by Jamie Nato—I can’t tell you how I got to this book, but I can tell you that this was a good time for me to read it. Using her own story, the author writes both a memoir and a self-help guide to finding (or rather re-finding) one’s passions and purposes. She writes each chapter as a treasure hunt for talents and abilities God has given and how they are lived out. She shows how God has used each stage of her life to point her to the treasure that she has in Him, and is in Him. This is a worthwhile read, and an easy, enjoyable, and witty one at that!

110. 
Meet Me in the Margins by Melissa Ferguson—I put this book on hold after reading two of Ferguson’s other books, How to Plot a Payback, and The Most Perfect Rom-Com. I have to say, my verdict was out until the last six chapters or so. The book was just so ridiculous at points. (It is a rom-com, so what did I expect?) The book didn’t seem to have much substance. (As reviewer Iola Goulton writes, Ferguson’s books are Christian romance, but not with an “emphasis on the Christian.”) But then, suddenly, the story has so much worthiness and sweet meaning (though without overt mention of faith)! Flustered assistant acquisitions editor Savannah Cade realizes that she loves writing, whether or not she publishes the romance on which she’s been working for years. She realizes who she truly loves. She reconciles with her sister. The uptight new VP at the publishing house, William Pennington, becomes human. He takes risks that pay off. The slow-burn romance turns into something worth a story. (The final details of the story and its resolution maker wonder if Ferguson wrote some parts of her own life into the story.) After all my margin notes on what I didn’t like, I’m sold on this book and want to read more from this author!

111) Chase the Fun: 100 Days to Discover Fun Right Where You Are by Annie F. Downs —I didn’t read this book over 100 days. I read it in a few days. In it, Downs writes in her signature, down-to-earth, and very practical style about considering fun as a spiritual discipline. (She maybe doesn’t say that directly, but I think that is what the book argues.) She shares about how being amateur at things provides ways to practice giving and receiving grace. She writes about how hobbies can connect people to God and others, and how the feeling of joy leads to the action of fun, with both joy and fun pointing to eternity. This was a fun read, pun intended!

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Who's read any of these? What books have been just what you needed in this season of your life?Please share in the comments!

Thursday, July 30, 2026

LESS Fear

Whew. It has been a long last few months. My injury accelerated the downward spiral, but let's be honest, the downward slide started long before that. Thankfully, here at the end of this month, it seems like things have started to turn a corner.

While I don't remember exactly how I got to my word for this month, I do know that I needed it. I have been living in so much fear: fear of pain, fear of re-injury, fear of my body changing during my healing, fear of never being able to run again, fear of never feeling happy, fear of the future, fear of the next shoe dropping, etc. It was not doing me any good. 

The Bible has a lot to say about fear. Specifically, it says not to fear men, or people, or things, but to fear God. During this month, I chose to meditate five minutes each day on one verse about fear. I am sure that I only scratched the surface of what the Bible has to teach about fear, but here are a few things I learned:
  • I don't need to fear. If God is for me, who can be against me? (Isaiah 41:10; Romans 8:31)
  • God is the only one I should fear, because he has power over life, sin, and death (Deuteronomy 10:12; Psalm 112:1, 7; Ecclesiastes 3:14; Isaiah 35:4; 1 Corinthians 15:55-56; Hebrews 2:14-15)
  • My fear of God should bring Him praise (Proverbs 31:30).
  • God redeems. Therefore I should not fear the past. While I may have consequences for sins and misdeeds, God is with me. He is my strength (Isaiah 55:4; Phil 4:13). 
  • My fear of God should cause me to obey Him and walk in His ways (Deuteronomy 6:2, 13, 24; Deuteronomy 8:6, Deuteronomy 10:20; Deuteronomy 13:4; Lamentations 3:57)
  • I am not a slave to fear or sin. I am a daughter of God! (Romans 8:15)
  • Nothing separates me from God’s love. Separation from God would be something to fear! Why fear tomorrow when I know that because of saving faith in Jesus, I’ll be with Him forever? (Romans 8:38)
While it was probably not something I needed to do, I also made a "Fear Not!" board on Pinterest to collect quotes. I journaled one a day. Initially, I thought I would write creatively and make this a calligraphy project. More days than not, I ended up squeezing in my journaling at the end of the evening, copying what I saw in the Pinterest pin more than anything else. While not as helpful as the Bible verse meditation, this was a fun quest and did help my mindset.

After a very rough week and a tough day on Thursday, July 17th, with the approval of my PT and a commitment to face fear, I ran again for the first time. It was scary, but I didn't want to live in fear of what would happen. Thankfully, I ran with very little to no pain. Sure, I only ran 30 seconds for four intervals, but it was something! I still have a long ways to go in my recovery, but Lord willing, with God's help, I will keep going, looking forward to seeing what God will do, living more and more in fear of him alone.



Wednesday, July 29, 2026

The More of Less Report (July)


Well, I'm junking up the house again. (The decluttering book warned me of this trap.) I've bought two new clothing items (without swapping out old ones), as well as bought gadgets to make my life easier (silicone muffin liners). I could argue that my dietitian told me to buy clothes in bigger sizes. I could argue that I "need" new clothes to feel better, but I really don't. I just bought clothes because I wanted to feel better (and they did-kind of). I could argue that new kitchen gadgets brought me joy and made cooking a little easier, and they did, but could I tolerate without them? Yes. So should I have bought them? I don't know. I just did. I told myself to spend less money this month. Did I? No. But I also got some joy from buying things, and made some memories. Did I live more of life? Overall, I would say, yes. And that was what I wanted from this year anyway.


In other updates on my goals--


January-LESS scrollingI don't know if I am or not. Some days, I am on social media less, other days more. I have started using at least Instagram more for information (eg for information on topics like stress fracture recovery). I notice when I am not getting anything out of scrolling, and sometimes I keep scrolling. Other times, I move on. I am playing more word games again. It is a good "out" for my brain, and maybe a little more beneficial than doom scrolling?

February-LESS pickingI do not really know here, either. Maybe I just have not been paying attention as much? I do know that I am going through a season of just feeling uncomfortable in my body overall.

March-LESS hunger (judgment)I want to keep healing from my stress fracture, and I want to gain muscle. I hate waking up in the middle of the night hungry. So I have been eating a lot, and and continuing to gain weight. I hope eventually things even out, but I don't know when that will happen, and if I am truly hungry, I guess my body needs all this food? I hope I continue to gain awareness in this area.

April-LESS goals: Yeah, well. I probably did not do too well here. In working on my July goal, I added quite a lot of activities. The physical therapy exercises have piled up. I need to reduce my list of daily things to do next month.

May-LESS noI caught myself saying, "No," a lot, but thankfully God gave me plenty of chances to rest and say, "Yes." I am thankful for that. I want to live a full life, and that means saying more, "Yes" (though I am learning to do so with boundaries). Yesses this month included attending several very last minute social gatherings, trying several different foods my husband offered me, and going on a surprise location trip that my husband planned--good things, all.

June-LESS lying to myself: This is a bit of a mixed bag. I need to have realistic expectations for myself, and as my mom pointed out, I need to be willing to change and learn and grow as the Holy Spirit prompts. I have realized that most things in life require sacrifice. If I do something for myself, I say, "No" to doing something for others. If I prioritize one thing, I have less time for others. (For example, when I choose to write at night after work, I generally end up going to bed later and getting less sleep.) I am realizing that sometimes, I need to compromise on my priorities, doing a little bit of what I said I would do, and letting a little bit go. That is probably better than the all or nothing trap in which I find myself too often.

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Overall, it has been a better month. Maybe I am not quite living by my "LESS" word, but less is not my end goal in life. Loving God, loving others, and loving myself are my goals. Whatever paths lead me to those goals are my path, less or not.

Tuesday, July 28, 2026

A Lot of Thoughts About GLP-1s


I’m sitting in the lobby of the orthopedic doctor trying to mind my own business, but unable to help overhearing the conversation between what appear to be a middle-aged dad and his wife. Two young boys sit between them. Neither the man nor the woman appear to be of size, though the woman might possess a little more padding than the man. What are they talking about? From the words I catch, GLP-1s, how they help people lose weight, and how with “coaching,” ensure that people keep the weight off and stay "healthy." And here I sit, leaning toward the right side, trying to balance on my right butt cheek, so as to avoid pressure on my pelvis, where I have what x-rays shows as a fracture, what I believe to be a bone-stress injury due to overtraining and suboptimal fueling. I expect to be pretty grounded soon, doing a lot less exercise, and needing to eat a whole lot more so that my body will heal, so needless to say, this conversation does not sit well with me. Furthermore, I wonder what this conversation is doing to the two young boys sitting between this man and woman. They appear slight and thin, as many children are when they are active and still growing. One of the boys wears a yellow bracelet around his wrist. I assume it to be a hospital bracelet, and that the adults are here because of him, but who am I to know? What I do know is that the adults are not focused on the kids. They are focused on this conversation about weight loss, one I’d rather not be hearing, and one that, even though I don't know them, I’d rather these young boys not be hearing, either.

As I look around me on the world, I see lots of people with what appears to be “Ozempic face,” that tight, drawn look, that accompanies rapid weight loss (Cleveland Health Clinic, n.d.). I see people receiving attention and praise for their weight loss, and I wonder, “Are they really happy? Are they safe? Is this sustainable for them?" It's like these drugs are a status symbol. The wealthy, the really disciplined, the "good" people take these drugs, and the rest of people, well, they are somehow not good enough, sub-optimal.

I recognize that GLP-1 drugs have a purpose. I have family, and, I assume, friends, that I know benefit from them. In a world focused on external looks and obsessed with thinness, however, I don’t appreciate the spotlight or health halo that culture is giving these drugs (Pugh, 2024). It is making them less available to those people who really need them to treat their conditions, and leading to conversations like the one I overheard at the orthopedic office becoming commonplace.

What will become of our world as more and more people take GLP-1s? Will everyone feel the pressure to be skinny? Will sunken faces just become the norm? What about our children? What about people for whom these drugs don't work, leaving them swimming in an even greater sea of shame related to their body and health conditions? What about people like me, who need to fuel a lot in order to heal injuries, do sports, or just stay healthy? What will happen if these drugs somehow become unavailable? What if these drugs have horrific long term side effects about which we do not yet know?

Please hear me when I say I am not trying to be critical of people taking these drugs for legitimate medical reasons. I guess I just want to call into question the ubiquity of them, and ask people to do some critical thinking before hopping right on train to the injectable weight loss drug station. Weight loss is not for everyone. These drugs are not for everyone. Maybe let's keep discussions about prescription medication inside the doctor's examination rooms, and out of the waiting areas and other mainstream arenas of life. There is so much more to life than weight and body shape, and well, some of us are trying to push thoughts of weight out of our thoughts to focus on well, life, and the many things that living in a body means, regardless of the way that body appears, or weighs out on the scale.

References:

Cleveland Health Clinic. (n.d.). https://health.clevelandclinic.org/ozempic-face. 'Ozempic face': What it is and how to avoid it

Pugh, T. (2024, January 22). Everyone around me is losing weight. Terri Pugh. https://terripugh.com/Everyone-around-me-is-losing-weight/

Monday, July 27, 2026

Everything I Did to Heal My Stress Fracture


I hope I never, ever get a stress fracture again! I have been trying to document this journey, however, so I made a list of things I did/have been/am doing in my healing process. I am not a doctor, nutritionist, or physical therapist. This is just my protocol based on my own research, as well as the recommendations of the experts I saw:

1. I drank coffee with RNWY collagen in every day for a least a month. I started this because I thought I had a tendon injury, but when I found out it was a stress fracture, I continued, as there is some limited evidence that collagen might help with bone healing (Karaytug, 2021; Sun et al., 2025). It might also help with bone density, something I want to build in order to avoid future such injuries (Ask the Doctors, 2025; Konig et al, 2018). While I knew that rest might help my healing most, I also wanted to help my body along where I could. As an ongoing practice, I still drink coffee with collagen two to three times a week.

2. I stopped running. Yes, I probably should have done this first, and yes, I ran on my stress fracture. (I don't recommend this.) At first, I ran ignorantly, but after diagnosis, yes, I ran five more days (a mile a day). I didn't want to abandon my run streak. I was taking the orthopedic PA's advice to "do what pain allowed" and using it to my advantage. I wanted to convince myself that I could run through healing. I was in denial. But then I talked to my nurse mom, who advised doing no impact activities only. The next morning, the pastor preached about selfishness at church, and I realized it was time. I was still hurting. To submit to God and my husband, I needed to stop running. No other gods before God. No purposeful selfish decisions that would harm others. (I also knew I would not be running that weekend when we went to California for my brother's wedding, unless I tried to sneak around under the cover of darkness, and that was not my plan.)

3. I ate, a lot, especially sugar and simple carbs. After the finding out about my injury, I was very hungry. (I was just coming off a half-marathon, and I think the initial pain probably blunted my appetite.) I also felt very stressed, so my cortisol may have been triggering stress eating. Increased sweets cravings, especially for chocolate, was documented in at least once research study of individuals with fractures (Nicoll, 2019). Since I heard that bone healing is energy expensive, I indulged myself (Brown, 2019). This did lead to weight gain, but I figured I could either be mad that I could not run because I slowed my healing by restricting calories, or feel different in my body and hopefully run again. I chose the latter.

4. I reduced my salt intake, and I stopped putting salt in my hot chocolate. With exercising so much less, I didn't need quite as much sodium. I also heard that salt might leech calcium out of the body (Tiyasatkulkovit, 2021). I wanted to keep as much calcium as possible around in order to rebuild my bone!

5. I started taking calcium chews, and then added a vitamin D supplement. Was I low in either nutrient? Not technically, but I don't eat a lot of dairy, and my vitamin D was below the 40 plus recommended for runners (Momaya, 2025). My dietitian said one 1,000 mcg supplement could not hurt me, so I took it (and I am still taking it).

6. I ate a bowl of fortified cereal with whole milk almost every night for the first twelve weeks of my recovery. And on that note, I switched most of my dairy products from low fat to skim, as fat boosts vitamin D absorption (Dawson-Hughes, 2015). Extra fat could also contribute to the energy surplus my dietitian recommend. While I am not eating cereal every night anymore, I am still trying to eat lots of dairy, as much as possible of the full-fat variety.

7. I started seeing a dietitian to help evaluate me for any nutrient gaps. Yes, I like to research, but she has a degree in this stuff. It is good to consult experts.

8. I hired a physical therapist (PT) with a speciality in bone health in runners, specifically stress fractures. There are actually two PTs in my area with this expertise, but I went with the one I could afford, and that was closer to me. She did not take insurance, so this is expensive, but is by far the most worthwhile resource on this list!

9. I waited to run. I about broke (down) several times, but I figured if I had hired experts to help me, I needed to stick with the plan. This was really difficult, especially when I felt really terrible in my body. With a lot of support from my husband and the Lord's strength, however, I made it. Now, I am trying to hold myself back and only run what the PT prescribes, so as to keep my stress fracture healed and not break anything else.

10. I started lifting heavier than ever. My PT suggested this to help build my bone density. I even started using barbells. Apparently this is good for my longterm health and longevity, so it is something I plan to continue doing.

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There are probably some other things I could add to this list, but these are the main ones. Which contributed most to my healing? I don't know. Probably all of it. If I could make one recommendation, however, it would be to train smart and fix nutrient gaps before a stress fracture results. That is a whole lot better than needing advice about how to heal a broken bone!

References:

Ask the Doctors. (2025, July 30).  Study indicates collagen peptides can increase bone density.
UCLA health. https://www.uclahealth.org/news/article/study-indicates-collagen-peptides-can-increase-bone-density

Brown, S. E. (2019, December 9). How to speed fracture healing. Better bones. https://betterbones.com/fractures-and-healing/speed-up-fracture-healing/

Dawson-Hughes, B., Harris, S. S., Lichtenstein, A. H., Dolnikowski, G., Palermo, N. J., & Rasmussen, H. (2015). Dietary fat increases vitamin D-3 absorption. Journal of the academy of nutrition and dietetics115(2), 225–230. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.jand.2014.09.014

Karaytug, K., Arzu, U., Ergin, O. N., Bilgili, F., Unverengil, G., Bayram, S., & Sen, C. (2021). Effects of Collagen- and Arginine-Fortified Osteokine Supplementation on Fracture Healing. Cureus13(10), e19072. https://doi.org/10.7759/cureus.19072

König, D., Oesser, S., Scharla, S., Zdzieblik, D., & Gollhofer, A. (2018). Specific Collagen Peptides Improve Bone Mineral Density and Bone Markers in Postmenopausal Women-A Randomized Controlled Study. Nutrients10(1), 97. https://doi.org/10.3390/nu10010097

Momaya, A. (2025, August 18). Should I take vitamin D as an athelete. Momaya sports medicine. https://www.momayamd.com/blog/should-i-take-vitamin-d-as-an-athlete/?bp=47902 

Nicoll R. (2019). Sickness behavior may follow fracture as well as infection. Brain, behavior, & immunity - health1, 100002. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.bbih.2019.100002

RNWY. (n.d.). RNWY foundation. https://rnwy.life/products/foundation?srsltid=AfmBOoqU6wWmXDD7Gyzy-F1kRCyx8OdoJoBe896SQxm77xyjbYPI6pKM

Sun, C., Yang, A., Teng, F., & Xia, Y. (2025). Efficacy of collagen peptide supplementation on bone and muscle health: a meta-analysis. 
Frontiers in nutrition12, 1646090. https://doi.org/10.3389/fnut.2025.1646090

Tiyasatkulkovit, W., Aksornthong, S., Adulyaritthikul, P., Upanan, P., Wongdee, K., Aeimlapa, R., Teerapornpuntakit, J., Rojviriya, C., Panupinthu, N., & Charoenphandhu, N. (2021). Excessive salt consumption causes systemic calcium mishandling and worsens microarchitecture and strength of long bones in rats. Scientific reports11(1), 1850. https://doi.org/10.1038/s41598-021-81413-2

Saturday, July 25, 2026

Christmas in July Adventure

One of the local breweries had signs up for "Christmas in July" complete with alcoholic Christmas drinks and Hawaiian Christmas characters. I'll raise them one better: Dessert for dinner and watching a Christmas movie in PJs-at home!


I actually planned out Christmas in July adventure long before I saw that sign downtown. I'd had the limited edition pumpkin pie cup of noodles around since Christmas and did not want them to go bad. 


And I had the idea of making an illusion of dessert for dinner. That took a little bit to figure out, but I eventually settled on making an illusion of this spaghetti with green beans from The Pasta Project. I used the pumpkin noodles for the noodles, spinach pancakes (Rooted at Heart) cut into strips for the green beans, and cinnamon disc candies for the tomatoes. As a side, I added "cheese" of easy cottage cheese cheesecake (The Protein Chef) baked in silicone muffin liners and then removed.


For our movie, I chose The Christmas Mixer. 


This was in part because dessert was soft sourdough discard Christmas cookies (Muscle Momma Sourdough) made with sprinkles left over from our Christmas gingerbread house.


The movie was pretty cheesy, with some faux pas like mispronunciation of the word llama, as well as fumbles like, "leaving in the lurches." Still, we enjoyed it, as it gave us some Christmas cheer, as well as some viewing of cooler weather.

And what's Christmas without a little gift? 


My husband really likes this coco-nut trail mix from Target.


I added some mushroom chai, as he mentioned wanted to trying it after hearing about mushroom coffee from family and friends.


We didn't need to go out to celebrate. We had a Christmas adventure of our own all at home. Bonus, all we had afterward, maybe, was a little bit of a sugar crash!