What We Cooked and Ate (Week 36)

This Week's Eats:

Eggs Benedict with pumpkin hollandaise (Sumptuous Spoonfuls)

Mexican street corn pizza (Rabbit Hill Farm)

Pickled red onions without sugar (No Frills Kitchen)

Pumpkin brownie cookie balls (Once Upon a Pumpkin)

Sourdough pumpkin pie baked oatmeal (The Pantry Mama)

Noteworthy Repeats:

Cottage cheese egg bake (The Real Food Dietitians)

Freezer Pull-Outs:

Best sourdough banana muffins 

Chocolate sourdough brownie bites (The Pantry Mama)

Sourdough bread

Sourdough gravy (The Pantry Mama)

Sourdough lemon muffins (The Pantry Mama)

Whole wheat sourdough pizza dough (The Pantry Mama)

Real Life Marriage: Behind Every Standing Woman

"Behind every good man is a good woman," or so the saying goes. Maybe, but I am here to say that I think behind every standing woman, there is someone propping them up. For me, that is my husband.

These past few months have been quite the roller coaster, physically, emotionally, relationally, and spiritually. Pain limited my capabilities and capacities. I grieved lost opportunities, as well as the (hopefully temporary) loss of my sport. I had many, many days, where I just wanted to throw in the towel, quit my physical therapy program, and either sit in a heap and cry, or just go out for a long, long, run knowing I'd break myself again.

Thankfully, my husband talked me out of all of my extreme ideas. I did cry, but he also took me to places like the rose garden and the Mogollon Rim to get my mind of what I couldn't do and onto what I could. He told me he still found me beautiful on days when my clothes didn't fit like they used to and I just felt awful in my body. He reminded me that I had hired experts to help them, and I needed to follow their advice.

It hasn't just been through this injury that my husband has supported me, though. I have an emotionally and mentally taxing job, and he's the one putting dinner on the table most nights. He's often getting our groceries when I feel too spent to retrieve them. He's the one telling me my value after I've been chewed out or berated by yet another person who is dsyregulated. He's the one giving me an out if/when I need to take a break from this line of work.

Women tend me to more emotional than men, and hi, I am that woman. I need my husband's steadiness to keep me grounded. I need his savings on days when the waves of life threaten to undo me. Behind this standing woman is one very strong man. I wouldn't be who I am today without him, and after this summer especially, I'm not sure I'd be standing without him. 

Life is All About Change

I always think that the next change will "fix" things: the move to college, graduation, my first job, finishing my master's, moving back to Arizona, getting back into my field, marriage, husband's graduation, a seasonal change. But none of it ever does. It just...changes things.

And even if/when I am comfortable with the changes happening in my life, there are the changes of others. Friends moving and changing seasons. Friends having babies. Friends getting married, and unfortunately divorced. Siblings changing. Parents changing. Family moving closer or further away. It just keeps happening.

Life is all about change. I don't think I will ever get used to it. I am not sure I will ever completely make peace with it, but I need to work on it, until heaven when there is no more change. Praise Jesus for that hope!

Stages of Waiting

People talk about stages of grief, but what about stages of waiting? (Maybe there is some grief in there, too?). The anxiety, the prayer, the trying to make peace, the tiredness, and then maybe an answer, or not. As I endured yet another period of waiting, I was thinking more about all of these periods.

Scripture says not to be anxious, but I struggle with that. When I am waiting, my first response is to feel to feel on edge, to feel as if I cannot stand to wait for an answer. "Do not be anxious about anything," God's Word says, but I feel tense, impatient, and frustrated (English Standard Version, 2019, Philippians 4:6). Then I realize I missed what should be the first step on waiting.

So, I revert to what I should have done. I pray, fervently, often, sometimes begging, pleading, and demanding. I "by prayer and supplication...let [my] requests be made known to God (Phil 4:6). It is good to go to God with my requests, to be like the persistent widow (Luke 18). Demanding, however, is not a positive behavior. It is thinking I know better than God, and I certainly do not.

Then there is the praying to wait well. I have prayed for the thing. God knows. Then I need to wait, to learn, to watch.

As I watch, I wonder if God will surprise us, me. I begin to hope, maybe expect. But still no answer comes.

I try to start making peace with the process. I pray to accept whatever God has for us. I try to start finding contentedness in the here and now, even if nothing changes. "With thanksgiving" I try to make my requests known to God (Phil 4:6). It is hard, but all I can do at the moment.

Eventually, in my humanity, I grow weary. I just want an answer. But the Word says not to grow weary in doing good, and I need to wait well, for God's good, and my glory (Galatians 6:9). And that pretty much resets the cycle all over again.

Oh, the struggle it is to wait, and to wait well. So many stages. So many phases. How I need the Lord's help.

Reference:

English Standard Version. (2019). Bible Gateway. https://www.biblegateway.com/versions/English-Standard-Version-ESV-Bible/#copy

What We Cooked and Ate (Week 35)

This Week's Eats:

Apple oat crumble (Meal Prep in an Instant)

Chicken spinach alfredo pizza (Wholefully) using white pizza sauce with sourdough starter (The Pantry Mama)

Hot honey (Thursday Night Pizza)

Hot honey pepperoni pizza inspired by We Are Not Martha

Potato tuna cakes (Feel Good Foodie)

Sourdough pumpkin banana bread (The Pantry Mama)

Sourdough pumpkin muffins (The Pantry Mama)

Tzatziki sauce (Feel Good Foodie)

Whole wheat sourdough pizza dough (The Pantry Mama)

Noteworthy Repeats:

Big-batch Instant Pot white beans (Epicurious)

Cottage cheese egg bake (The Real Food Dietitians)

Freezer Pull-Outs:

Best sourdough banana muffins 

Chocolate sourdough brownie bites (The Pantry Mama)

Sourdough bread

Sourdough gravy (The Pantry Mama)

Sourdough lemon muffins (The Pantry Mama)

Pressing Reset

I am a pretty emotional person, and as such, I get bent out of shape easily. I would like to say I bend, but don't break, but that is not really true either. I bend, and I break...down. I am learning to accept this about myself, even if I don't like it, because try as I might, it just always seems to happen. What I can control (as my husband always reminds me) is what I do with my emotions. Thankfully, with the Lord's help (and a lot of therapy and a lot of support from others), I am learning what it looks like to reset.

1. I cry. Crying releases some chemicals from the body, which might help re-regulate afterward (Murube, 2009). Sometimes I just need to let things out. 

2. I release my emotions through some kind of physical movement. Most often, this looks like a walk, but sometimes it is push-ups or stair climbing. This releases stress and increases endorphins (Hanley-Defoe, 2025). Moving my body outside has the benefit of resetting my setting, which can also help my brain.

3. I read my Bible or a devotional. Sometimes I just need a shift in perspective (Shannon, n.d.). I need to reset in the Word.

4. I pray. Sometimes I can do this, and sometimes I can't. Sometimes, it looks like a breath prayer, or as in one recent instance, saying "Lord, I'm so angry" over and over again (Tucker, 2025). The Lord knows. The Lord hears.

5. I actually reset and tell myself to restart the day (even late in the day). Self-talk does have an effect (Goldsmith, 2022). I try to redeem the time I have left. 

I am far from perfect. I still need a lot of work, but thankfully with the Lord's help, I am learning. Pressing reset works a little better, a little more often, and a little faster.

References:

Goldsmith, B. (2022). The benefits of positive self-talk. Psychology today. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/emotional-fitness/202205/the-benefits-of-positive-self-talk

Hanley-Defoe. (2025, March 26). 7 small ways to regulate and reset your nervous system. Psychology today. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/everyday-resilience/202503/7-small-ways-to-reset-and-regulate-your-nervous-system

Murube, J. (2009). Hypotheses on the development of psychoemotional tearing. The ocular surface 7(4), 171-175. https://doi.org/10.1016/S1542-0124(12)70184-2.

Shannon, S. A. (n.d.). What does a reset in the Bible look like? Families with grace. https://familieswithgrace.com/what-does-a-reset-in-the-bible-look-like/.

Tucker, J. (2025, August 21). Breath prayer: An ancient practice to calm anxiety and strengthen your faith. Best self media holistic health & conscious living. https://bestselfmedia.com/breath-prayer/

The Power of the Shower

"I do my best thinking in the shower." Someone said to me recently. I could not agree more. There is just something about a shower that is relaxing, resetting, and reinvigorating.

Showers help promote relaxation. Warm water can help relieve muscle soreness (USA Sunny Showers, 2023).  Cold water, on the other hand can help reduce inflammation and improve mood (UCLA Health, 2023). The sound of water itself is thought to be soothing (Thoma et al., 2018). Many people use pleasantly scented bath products in the shower. Showering is often a time for practicing self-care and self-compassion (Connolly, ). In all of these ways, showering is kind of an all-in-one relaxation package.

Showers can help reset as well. With novel sensory stimuli, they can help to reset the sensory system and reduce stress (Moody, 2026). Changing location changes stressors, so just moving the body to get to the shower helps reset (Neff, 2022). Being in the shower also refreshes and helps provide perspective.

Sometimes insights come in the shower. Maybe it is because of the relaxation. Maybe it is the rest. Or maybe it is simply being away from all the noise and stimuli of everyday life. Besides the water (unless people listen to music during a shower), the shower is a place of quiet, something rare to find these days (Calm, n.d.). Maybe, as Emily Solberg (n.d.) states, this is why "best ideas come...in the shower." There's just something about it.

Obviously, showers do not fix everything, but there is something about them. Maybe try one today? (But if you have sensory struggles and hate showering, maybe find another way to relax, reset, and reinvigorate?)

References:

Calm. (n.d.). The benefits of silence and how to create a quiet time ritual. https://www.calm.com/blog/benefits-of-silence. 

Connolly, J. (Host). (2024, January 28). 10 ways to chase down joy. (no. 240 [Audio podcast episode]. In The Jess Connolly podcast. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/episode-24-10-ways-to-chase-down-joy/id1437912225?i=1000643319406

Moody, L. (Host). (2026, February 16). How to instantly reset your brain (when everything feels like too much) (n. 401) [Audio podcast episode]. In The Liz Moody podcast. https://www.lizmoody.com/thelizmoodypodcast-reset/

Neff, A. (2022, August 1). Nervous system reset: 13 effective ways to reset your nervous system. Neurodivergent insights. https://neurodivergentinsights.com/13-ways-to-reset-your-nervous-system/?srsltid=AfmBOop_jar3YfqqX5u2cfdeTL97v2dj5sk9wvYm7ilmlfY5MGpyO1wQ

Solberg, E. (n.d.). About. Shower arguments with Emily Solberg. https://showerarguments.substack.com/about

Thoma, M. V., Mewes, R., & Nater, U. M. (2018). Preliminary evidence: the stress-reducing effect of listening to water sounds depends on somatic complaints: A randomized trial. Medicine, 97(8), e9851. https://doi.org/10.1097/MD.0000000000009851

UCLA Health. (2023, January 25). 6 cold shower benefits to consider. https://www.uclahealth.org/news/article/6-cold-shower-benefits-consider

USA Sunny Showers. (2023, October 25). The healing benefits of water: How showering benefits your health. Sunny showers USA. https://sunnyshowerusainc.com/blogs/sunny-shower/the-healing-power-of-water-how-showering-benefits-your-health