Monday, July 31, 2023

Everything I Read in July

Continuing on with what I guess is the theme of the year, less reading this month. There were a few really good ones in here, however! 

68) Wedding at Wildwood by Lenora Worth—Isabel Laundry comes back to Wildwood to take photos of a high school friend, a high school friend marrying an arch enemy. Isabel was once friends with the groom’s brother, Dylan, but much pain as passed between them. Still, sparks fly when Isabel and Dylan continually run into each other. More is at stake than romance, though: lives, livelihoods, and home. I struggled to wait for the resolution in this story, but it was a good one, and a meaningful one in terms of addressing still lingering prejudices, especially in the South. The book starts and ends with a wedding, but in the middle is so much more!

69) Choosing to Run by Des Linden with Bonnie D. Ford—As @ArunnersPlate commented to me on Instagram, “I didn't want it to end!” This is a great book about America's underdog, small and scrawny Des Linden who pushed through terrible weather conditions and her own medical complications to win the 2018 prestigious Boston marathon. The book intersperses miles of the race with tales of Linden's upbringing, time at the Hansons-Brooks Distance Project, and subsequent training on her own. She has faced a lot, and yet she still chooses to run—inspiration for us all. (*Note, Des likes the “F” word, so be prepared for that if you choose to read.)

70) Sorry I’m Late, I Didn’t Want to Come: One Introvert’s Year of Saying Yes by Jessica Pan—I really cannot recommend this book. I expected a book about an introvert saying, “Yes” to social invitations and writing about the results. Instead, I found a book of social experiments the author designed for herself, challenges that often had her seeking expert advice and support. The book is riddled with swearing and taking God’s name in vain, and also includes forays into drinking and psychedelic use. I enjoyed the last chapters about her dinner party and learning the joys of living outside the small world that introversion can cause. Unfortunately these chapter were not enough to redeem my reading, leading to my hard, “No” for this book.

71) Eat the Year: 366 Fun and Fabulous Food Holidays to Celebrate Every Day by Steff Deschenes—One part journal, one part cookbook, one part encyclopedia, this is a record of one woman’s journey to celebrate a food holiday every single year. I found reading this book a bit tedious (at least all at once). The author celebrated a lot of alcohol related holidays, which was not my thing. She also included quite a bit of adult humor and some political statements, especially related to her decision to eat vegetarian. All in all, I could see using this book as a reference for celebrating food holidays, but I unfortunately did not find that much fun reading it.

72) How to Keep House While Drowning: A Gentle Approach to Cleaning and Organizing by KC Davis, LPC—“You don’t exist to serve your space; your space serves you,” and if it’s not, you need to be gentle with yourself. This is the premise of KC Davis’ book. As a mom of two who struggles with anxiety, depression, and ADHD, she knows what it’s like to feel like she’s drowning. Using her knowledge as a therapist, and building on the works of Brene Brown and Kristin Neff, she writes this gentle book about self, space, and others care. She includes gentle, simple, practical, no-judgment suggestions for handling tasks like cleaning, dishes, and laundry. When it comes to division of household labor, she doesn’t suggest mental gymnastics as books like Fair Play do. She just advocates for equal rest. Davis purposely writes short chapters in clear type to make the book easy to get through . While the book includes a little bit of language, some political agenda, and discussion of “morally neutral” things that some may argue are not, this really is a book written for everyone. If you’re not struggling to keep house, you probably know someone who is. And even if you’re not struggling with household tasks, everyone could probably benefit from being a little gentler with themselves.

Wednesday, July 26, 2023

Using Social Media More Mindfully

I've talked about why I've kept social media. Now I'm talking about how I am trying to consume it more mindfully. Am I perfect? No how, no way! I am as bad at disassociating by scrolling as the next person. I am noticing when I enjoy using social more, however, and that is when I am using it mindfully.

I enjoy social media when I have time to engage with it. Yes, I often scroll through quickly for updates, but when I take time to read, comment, etc., I find it more enjoyable. Mary Jelkovsky (2023) reported that she only opens up social media when she has time to engage. This might be a stretch for me, but it is worth considering.

Considering the time factor, I try to keep loose track of how much time I have spent on social media. Apple screen time is great for this. For a time, I did try using the parental controls to limit my social media use, but it just made me frustrated and frantic, not the attitude I want to have towards social media. Now, when I check my daily or weekly usage of screen time and see that it is high, I ask myself if I want to stay on social media, or consider doing something else. Sometimes I choose to stay, and sometimes I choose to go.

Other ideas to engage social media mindfully are plentiful. I have my social media apps set to the second screen of my phone so that I have to intentionally scroll to partake of them (Burger, 2021). This does not take much, but requires just a bit more pause before consuming. It is good to consider my headspace while consuming social media, and to check in with myself if social media use is helping or hurting me that day (Shuck, 2023). Taking breaks, or sabbaths can also be helpful as resets. (I often do this during Lent. I used to do it every Sunday, though not as much recently.) To be more mindful about social media, I have to engage my mind, and this is often what social media use does not do.

Ultimately, mindful social media use, for me, comes down to mindset. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? Who am I doing it for? Is this serving me? Answering these questions is at least a start of a foundation towards better, wiser social media use.

References:

Burger, J.C. (2021, August 17). A minimalist’s guide to using social media wisely + mindfully. Simply Fiercely. https://www.simplyfiercely.com/consume-social-media-mindfully/

Harrison, C. (Host). (2023, May 22). The harms of social media, and giving up a career as a fitness influencer with Mary Jelkovsky (no. 8). [Audio podcast episode]. In Rethinking wellness. https://rethinkingwellness.substack.com/p/8-the-harms-of-social-media-and-giving

Shuck, C. (2023, April 7). Unlock the power of social media: 19 mindful practices to enhance your online experience. LinkedIn. https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/unlock-power-social-media-19-mindful-practices-enhance-shuck#:~:text=Set%20boundaries%3A%20One%20of%20the,breaks%20from%20social%20media%20altogether.

Monday, July 24, 2023

The Stop-Gap Life

It seems like we have been living the stop-gap life for so long. First COVID, and all its shortages. Then school and work and family and all that. It never seems like there is enough time, so I did things part way, half-way, just to get us until the next day. It's not the way I wanted to live.

I have done so many things to prolong the inevitable. I mended holes in socks, only for the socks to get bigger and better holes and still need to be replaced. I portioned out things from the refrigerator so that I knew how many days I can go before I have to go to that other grocery store. I threw together meals from random bits and pieces, just to give myself another day to come up with a meal plan. I hand washed a few pieces of silverware and a plate or two to avoid running the dishwasher for one more day. I said that we should wait until X to do Y. I put a lot of things off. I tried to plug holes that would inevitably eventually open again.

Our stop-gap life has gotten better at times, and worse at times. I am trying now, though, to learn where to stock up and prepare, and where to let things go. It is an elusive balance that lives in the gray, rather than the black-and-whites of life. I envision a day when we won't have to live this life anymore, and to be fair, we have made progress. To really progress, though, I think I have to change my mindset.

There is a time and place for just making ends meet. Eventually, though, I have to slow down, stop, evaluate, pray for God's wisdom, and make a plan. The stop-gap life becomes a vicious cycle unless I do. 

Wednesday, July 19, 2023

Why I've Kept Social Media

I go back and forth about social media, as evidenced by the posts I have written about it over the years. While I can definitely use social media too much, it also has its benefits. Here are some of the current reasons I have decided to keep my accounts:

1) Instagram is a place for me to play. I enjoy taking photos, curating my feed, and even making things to post on it, like my current Friday scripture posts.

2) Social media helps me stay connected. Yes, I can get too connected, but at the same time, it gives me ways to keep in contact with people I care about, even at a distance. If I am wise, I can use what I see on social media to prompt me to pray.

3) I learn things. I have probably learned more about running and running nutrition through Instagram than anywhere else. I can absorb the short bits of information and then research more if I wish. Social media also helps me discover new recipes, find interesting reads, and learn new kitchen hacks. These benefit my live overall.

4) Social media plugs me into a place. Our city posts a lot of hidden gems on their social media accounts. They also post contests and prizes, one of which we recently won!

5) Information is fast. I often see notifications of new blogs, city news, etc. on social media before I see it elsewhere. I definitely have to fact check information, as fast information is not always true, but nonetheless, social media can apprise me of current happenings.

6) Social media is a form of exposure therapy. I can pick apart every picture I take, whether it be of food or flowers or people. Posting encourages me to accept the imperfections I see and enjoy the creativity and connection I get via posting.

7) I can encourage. Social media is definitely a place where people cut each other down, but does it have to be? Why not make it a place of encouragement? I still see social media as a street corner from which to proclaim hope, the ultimate hope of which is found in the gospel.

8) Social media is a funnel. Julia Turshen pointed this out in a recent podcast (Harrison, 2023). I post links to my blog through Facebook. Pinterest and other platforms can point me to things that interest me. Again, I can overuse social media and go down the “rabbit hole,” but when I don't it is pretty handy!

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Will I keep social media forever? Not necessarily. Life is a series of evolutions and evaluations. (For example, I primarily use Instagram now, whereas I used to primarily use Facebook. Who knows what it will be years from now). May the Lord give wisdom as I continue to weigh what works for me.

Reference:

Harrison, C. (Host). (2023, June 19). Cooking without wellness rules and how social media is like diet culture with Julia Turshen (no. 10). [Audio podcast episode]. In Rethinking wellness. https://rethinkingwellness.substack.com/p/10-cooking-without-wellness-rules



Monday, July 17, 2023

Going Without My Phone

I kept my phone in a different room while I ate. I almost didn't. I use my phone for a lot of things. Meal time is often the time that I get to look at social media, read articles, read books on Libby, and generally relax. But my challenge said to leave it, so I did. It was hard, way harder than I thought.

I wanted to take a photo of my pretty plate, but the phone was in the other room. I wanted to an item to my grocery list. The phone was in the other room. I wanted to google something. I wanted to check my crossword. I wanted to read my book. The phone was in the other room. I had to sit there, or find something else to do.

Going without my phone honestly made me a little panicky, both because I wanted stuff from it, and because I realized how much I relied on it. Going without my phone did slow me down some. It prompted me to do a few more paper crosswords and actually start the paper book I have had sitting at my spot at the table for a while. All good things.

I am not ready to give up my phone, or do as some are and get a flip phone. I think it is good for me to realize how much I use my phone. It's good to take a fast from it, even if just for short periods of the day. I am convinced that phones are here to stay, so it's best to learn how to live with them in godly ways. I'm not there yet, but this day of going without my phone at meals hopefully got me a little closer.

Wednesday, July 12, 2023

Traveling Through Life...Together


We have not traveled much together during our four years of marriage. (Thanks, pandemic + school.) We dream of doing more, though. The more that God allows us to do, the more we value our time together.

Travel takes us out of our normal environment. In this way, it removes some of the things that traditionally take up our time: work, chores, projects around the house, etc. Travel encourages us to engage in our surroundings, rather that get distracted by our computers, phones, televisions, and other electronics. In this way, travel helps us to be present and connect more with each other.

Another benefit of travel is the creation of new experiences. Sharing experiences together helps shape our identity as a couple. It also helps us form new memories together, memories to which we can refer back at later times with fondness.

Travel, while it has its stresses, also relieves stress. Depending on how we do it, there are less dishes, less travel, less real life decisions that we have to make. If we pay our bills before we go and have set a reasonable budget for travel, we are able to avoid money talk for a while. Relief of stress benefits our relationship. It leaves more room for the good things to grow.

Travel can also help us discover new things. A 2012 study found that couples who travel together are more likely to share interests and pursue hobbies together (US Travel Association). Travel and shared interests can promote positive communication, which benefits marriage as a whole even outside travel season (Pace, n.d.). Travel and its new experiences also bring out new and different aspects of one another, things that couples want to know about one another (Hart, 2023). Travel is good for marriage, for more reasons than couples realize, until they start doing it.

Marriage commits us to traveling through life together. It also gives us opportunity to travel to new places, both in the world, and in our relationship. Traveling is special, so let's make the best of it, for our marriages, and for our world!

References:

Hart, B. (2023, May 12). 8 reasons to travel as a couple, before and after marriage. Seven Corners. https://www.sevencorners.com/blog/travel-tips/reasons-to-travel-after-marriage

Pace, R. (n.d.). 6 tips for traveling with your spouse. The Grit and Grace Project. https://thegritandgraceproject.org/relationships/6-tips-for-traveling-with-your-spouse

US Travel Association. (2012). Travel strengthens relationship and ignites romance. https://www.ustravel.org/sites/default/files/media_root/5.2015_Relationship_ExecSummary.pdf


Monday, July 10, 2023

Real Life Marriage: Sweet Time


We recently returned from a twelve day vacation. It's the longest time we have had together since our honeymoon four years ago. Granted, we spent five days of it traveling, but the other seven days we just spent together, at home, doing (mostly) our routine (just without our jobs) We didn't get along the whole time. We actually had multiple conflicts. We did enjoy one another's presence, though, and it was sweet. It was not just good for us. We needed it.

I used to disregard some of the marriage recommendations I saw. Things like taking a week long trip every two year seemed superfluous, unneeded (Marquina, 2022). But after the intensity of our most recent season of life, I think I get it, or at least I get it more. While we did travel some these twelve days, what we needed most was time. We needed time to relax and unwind. We needed time to just be together, sometimes with no agenda. We needed time to get some house projects done. We needed time to be in the same place together, to remember that we are in this together. We needed time to dream.

Resources to travel are not always available. Twelve days off work are not always available. Usually, though, there is some time we can take. Time we might not want to take. Time that it might hurt us a bit monetarily to take, but time nonetheless. If you have it, I encourage you to take it. Prioritize it. The rewards are sweet, even if imperfect.

Reference:

Marquina, S. (2022, August 4.) Couples say the key to a happy, successful marriage is the '2-2-2 rule.' iHeart. https://www.iheart.com/content/2022-08-04-couples-say-the-key-to-a-happy-successful-marriage-is-the-2-2-2-rule/

Tuesday, July 4, 2023

Seven.


Seven. The number of completion. Is my time in Arizona done? I don't know. For now, though, we are still here, and on this day, I am reflecting on all I love about this state:

1) Endless days of sunshine (really, we rarely have an entirely cloudy day)

2) A dry climate (that allows me to enjoy getting outside daily, even in the heat)

3) Always near mountains [Did you know that Arizona has over 194 mountain ranges (Visit Arizona, n.d.)?]

4) The saguaro cacti (Yes, we had a cactus-themed wedding. No I'm not sorry!)

5) Wide open spaces (even with said mountains)

6) Views for miles

7) My husband (not an Arizona native, but I met him here, so I have to credit the state for that)

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What about you, readers? What do you love about your state?

Reference:

Visit Arizona. (n.d.). Red rocks and forests, mountains. https://www.visitarizona.com/places/mountains/

Monday, July 3, 2023

Everything I Read in June

I finally got back into a reading groove this month, well mostly because we had vacation. I decided I needed some easy reads, and did find some. Yes, they were distractions. No, they were not bad. (This is why I choose Christian fiction when I read for distraction--less through which to filter, though I still need to sometimes.) All in all, it was an enjoyable month of reading!

54) Brainstorm: The Power and Purpose of the Teenage Brain by Daniel J. Siegel—This was shared with me as “the best” book about raising teenagers. It’s good, helpful, and full of information, but not what I expected. Siegel writes a good bit about his concept of “mindsight.” He gives some basic information about attachment and development. He briefly covers issues like sexuality and substance abuse (albeit NOT from a Christian viewpoint). He provides “Mindsight” tools, but for me, these were not practical enough. I guess when I read a book about teens, I want more “how” and less “why.” Siegel gives the why, and for those who want it, maybe this is “the best” book for them. Meanwhile, I will keep reading as I seek to find resources for the families with whom I work

55) Better Than Before: What I Learned About Making and Breaking Habits—to Sleep More, Quit Sugar, Procrastinate Less, and Generally Build a Happier Life by Gretchen Rubin (6/13/23)—Gretchen Rubin is a master evaluator and categorizer of human behavior. In this book, she examines habits, and what it takes to make and break them. She notes that most people want to change habits that fall within the “Essential Seven” of food and drink, exercise, budgeting, relaxation, time use, organization, and relationships. Rubin then examines different aspects of habits in these categories. She reinforces the benefits of habits (eg decreased decision fatigue), and shares some of their downfalls (eg the speeding up of time, decreased enjoyment, etc.). In the end, after all of her examination, Rubin concludes that, “we can build our habits only on the foundation of our own nature.” I think that is a good way to sum up the book, with a note that this book will probably most benefit people who share Rubin’s Upholder tendency. For that matter, Upholders are probably the main readers of this book! Rebels do not want someone to tell them how to do anything, let alone form a habit. Obligers might read, but only if someone else holds them accountable; and questioners might read, but only if they see the need. Rubin’s values-based questions, and even the “Secrets of Adulthood” sprinkled throughout are helpful for people of all tendencies, though, and I think that anyone who does read—any part of the book—can probably find something that benefits them and makes them “better than before.”'

56) Honey and Oats: Everyday Favorites Baked with Whole Grains and Natural Sweeteners by Jennifer Katzinger—This was a cool cookbook, in that the author tested various whole grain flours (barley, eikhorn, spelt, etc.) and natural sugars (coconut sugar, honey, maple syrup, etc.) for use in traditional baking. The recipes were not that unique or exciting, however. (Maybe that was the point?) The cookbook did not have a lot of pictures. All in all, this is more of a resource cookbook, and not the usual, "read for fun"/"read for inspiration kind of cookbooks I like. Kudos to this author for finding great uses for her beloved whole grains and natural sugars. I like them, too. I just prefer to substitute ingredients for myself (though often with some decided flops—which maybe reason to reference a cookbook like this if I need to be successful).

57) Home for Good by Jessica Keller—This was my kind of book! A woman running a therapy horse program, an estranged husband who finally comes back and wants to work at reconciliation, and a little bit of mystery and intrigue. I gobbled up this sweet story about Ali Silver, her son Chance, and Jeremiah Freed in just two days. The lessons about grudges, forgiveness, and redemption are meaningful. The author includes scripture and a gospel message. I recommend it for a light summer, or really anytime read!

58) At Home in His Heart by Glynna Kaye—I liked this book, maybe partly because it was set in the tiny town of Canyon Springs, Arizona, near the actual town of Pinetop-Lakeside. Yes, the story of widower Sandi and back-from-combat, best friend of her husband Bryce is a bit expected, but there are some unexpected parts, too, as well as some lessons about forgiveness, trust in God, family relationships, and more. Sandi's daughter Gina definitely makes the impact and may steal reader's hearts with her childlike trust and enthusiasm. All in all, this was a short, sweet read that I enjoyed over the course of a few (almost) summer evenings.

59) Second Chance Courtship by Glynna Kaye—Another story set in Canyon Springs, Arizona, this one follows Kara Dodson as she returns home to care for her ill mother. There she runs into her teenage crush Trey Kenton, from whom she’s been keeping secrets for twelve years. Trey has secrets of his own, though, and all the secret-keeping causes personal and relational pain, that is until Trey starts working on forgiveness, encouraging Kara to do the same. I am noticing a theme in the stories I have read by this author so far, and that is of women who feel unlovable because of their choices and actions. It is unrealistic to think that the love of a man can heal a guilty, shameful heart, but the love of God most certainly can! The author always points the heroine to Him before resolving any earthly relationship issues. I appreciate that, as well as the themes of second chances and redemption. I can get behind these books, for so many reasons other than just being a loyal Arizonian.

60) A Leap of Faith by Lenora Worth—Accountant Autumn Clancy comes home to Atlanta, Texas not because she wants to, but because she got laid off from her job in New York. Deciding to take her father up on his offer to become part of his firm, she gets an unexpected surprise: a man named Campbell Dupree, already hired to run the place. She decides to stay anyway, and together, they take on the case of a widow woman scammed out of money by a con man. The case is a lot and brings out some unexpected plot twists, along with lessons about forgiveness and love. These both require leaps of faith, and finding true home, something Autumn realizes after she decides to stay home. I enjoyed this story, and am interested in reading more by this author.

61) Look-Alike Lawman by Glynna KayeGrayson Wallace is a cop, a good cop put on light duty after an injury sustained in an undercover operation. Light duty means helping out at a local elementary school, where he meets, and falls for a cop-crazed boy named Cory Lopez. Cory may be cop-crazed, but his mother Elise is not. Having lost her husband in the line of duty, she wants to stay miles away, that is, until it seems like Grayson is the only person who can help Cory with his maladaptive school behavior. Grayson, meanwhile, is fighting his own battles: finding long-lost family, and trying to find the father her knows. Both he and Elise have a lot of pride, and a lot of need for trust. The law cannot keep them safe. In fact, it never could. Only God could. Only faith could, and they must decide if it is enough. With a good blend of romance, intrigue, suspense, and some thought-provoking content, I really enjoyed this book.

62) Almost Arizona by Susan Page Davis—I am a sucker for Arizona, and so is Julie Newman. She went each to teach to avoid Adam Scott, a man she loved, but couldn’t live with as a lawman. She comes back only because her mother passes away and her brother Oliver needs her. Her stagecoach is robbed on the journey home, though, and her brother is accused! The plot of this book ramps up quickly, but then resolves a little faster than expected. For a quick read, this isn’t bad, but I’d like a better plot line. The rise is almost there, but the resolution seems much too tidy for a western. romance.

63) Wildfire Threat by Cathy McDavid—Aden Whitley has a less than pretty pedigree, and the town of Happenstance, Arizona has not let him forget it. A relationship with Jesus has transformed and reformed him, though, and now he serve his town as a forest ranger. When fire threatens, he gets caught up in helping the Karstetter family, a family directly hurt by his own, and grandparents of Rayna, a woman who does not want to forgive him. After many efforts to save the Karstetter Ranch and Grandpa Karstetter, who suffers with dementia, the tides start to turn, but so does the fire. This is a good book, but one that was harder for me to get through, maybe because the struggles of the characters? Maybe because I have lived through the threat of wildfire? I am unsure. I made it through, but might not reread this one.

64) Hometown Princess by Lenora Worth—This is definitely a Cinderella story, but with some twists. Cari Duncan comes home to Knotwood Mountain to restore an old home, the only thing left to her by her stepmother after her father’s death. She is also trying to rebuild her life after failed relationships and finances. Her neighbor Rick Adam’s is trying to rebuild, too, only he’s a little ahead of her in the faith and forgiveness departments. This tale has its fair share of romance, suspense, and mystery and ends sweetly. What a fun summer read!

65) A Time to Heal by Linda Goodnight—Kat Thatcher is burned out. She returns home to the lake to rest, regroup, recover. What she doesn’t expect to find is her high school sweetheart, back in town as the lake ranger and doing some recovery of his own from a painful divorce. He tried to clean it up, but his ex-wife had an affair and remarried, leaning heartbreak in the wake. Then there is the matter of the town, experiencing a string of random burglaries and vandalism they can’t shake. I didn’t love the divorce aspects of this book, but I did find its exploration of truth and the healing that comes from speaking it out loud powerful. I wouldn’t recommend this book to everyone, but for those with blended families, like the one the author herself says she as, its messages of forgiveness and healing could be timely.

66) The Heart of Grace by Linda Goodnight—Drew Michaels escaped his terrible childhood, or so he thinks as he explores photography in dangerous areas like Iraq. He is convinced it is time to divorce his wife Larissa, however, because she is getting too close, and he is not, and cannot be the man she wants. Then he gets injured and Larissa takes him home, against his will, to recover. Larissa has newly become a Christian and decides to love him through his pain, despite his protests about still wanting a divorce. This is a truly sweet story about the pains, commitments, and process of love in marriage. It ends sweetly with some family redemption as well. This is a special book, and definitely one I would recommend!

67) Happier at Home: Kiss More, Jump More, Abandon Self-Control, and My Other Experiments in Everyday Life by Gretchen Rubin—I had hoped this book would give me ideas about how to improve happiness at home. It didn't, really. Rather it was more memoir style reflection on how Rubin attempted to be happier in her own home. The book did encourage me to think intentionally about home, but that was about it. If you are going to read a Gretchen Rubin book, I recommend The Four Tendencies. It is more helpful in terms of everyday life.