Monday, September 30, 2024

Everything I Read in September

A lot of political reading this month because, well, it's that time of year, and to whatever extent the Lord directs, I want to be faithful in the civic arena. I also have a growing interest in why people are opposed to the church and things of faith and have read some towards that end, and well, there's some other books that just seemed interesting thrown in:

68) Church of Cowards: A Wake-Up Call for Complacent Christians by Matt Walsh—This is a scathing rebuke for Christians, if there every was one. Yes, Walsh identifies as Catholic, and some of his writing reflects this, but much more of what he writes is about/against evangelicals. Walsh, a political commentator for The Daily Wire starts by calling out Christians as “not worth killing” because of their wishy-washy faith. He notes the obsession of the world with being tolerant, rather than being truthful, lambasts the self-centered nature of American living, and has a lot to say about the public education system (not all of which I agree with). Walsh's book is pretty doom and gloom, but as he concludes, he writes that “this has been a book about despair, not a book of despair.” He calls believers to hope, to trute religion, to a crusade of evangelism and gospel living. If this book is not convicting, maybe readers need to examine if they have true faith at all.

69) The Ballot and the Bible: How Scripture Has Been Used and Abused in American Politics and Where We Go From Here by Kaitlyn Schiess—We are all biased, and we all tend to proof text. Look no further than this book to be convicted about how not only politicians have proof-texted scriptures, but also how believers have used scripture to champion their personal platforms, scriptural or not. With very little bias, Schiess walks through the misuses of scripture in politics from the early days of The United States to the present. She does not favor one political party over the other, but rather challenges Christians to read their Bibles, in context, in the church, and in the community. She emphasizes neither withdrawal nor over-involvement, but rather asserts, “We should strive to build flourishing families and churches, but not at the expense of the commission God gave at the the beginning and never rescinded: to care for all of creation (Gen. 1:27-28).” This book is pretty easy to read, and it is convicting. Interested in history and politics or not, this is an important read for all of those who call themselves Christians in America!

70) Maybe Baby: 28 Writers Tell the Truth About Skepticism, Infertility, Baby Lust, Childlessness, Ambivalence, And How They Made the Biggest Decision of Their Lives Edited by Lori Leibovich—I have watched friends and family: single, married, and in dissolving marriage, wrestle with decisions (and abilities) to have children and raise them. This book was far from what I hoped it would be in discussing those struggles. Rife with liberal values, frequent depictions of abortion and really, a lack of value of children all together, it is just a sad read overall. This is not a “maybe” read, it's a hard, “No.” Surely someone else can bring better awareness to this nuanced topic?

71) When We Were On Fire: A Memoir of Consuming Faith, Tangled Love, and Starting Over by Addie Zierman–The Christian faith is complicated. It can become cult-like. Many people leave it, and never come back. Addie Zierman tried, but found her way back, through a series of poor, some nearly disastrous decisions, the steadfast love of her steady husband, and a good EMDR therapist. This is her journey, from evangelical, to nearly ex-vangelical, and back into a non-static, struggling relationship with Jesus. Zierman's book is real and raw, with descriptions of alcohol abuse and language that would not fit in most churches. Still, it is a worthwhile, and I would say refreshing read, when the world is on fire and most people are just letting it burn, rather than wrestling with it and trying to douse the flames and forge a new way forward.

72) Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis by J.D. Vance—If there ever was an honest look at life for the white working class, this is it, and it's written by a former marine turned lawyer, US Senator, and now vice president elect. This book is rife with language, descriptions of abuse and neglect, and substance use. It raises some real issue and encourages taking responsibility for making a change, but without being able to name what that change should be. While it is helpful to know the origin story of JD Vance, this book left me with a bad taste in my mouth, more aware of the crisis for “hillbillies” such as Vance, but without much hope of it changing. The one “jewel in the rough” is Vance's grandma, aka “Mawmaw,” but even she was a bit hard to read about. How about an elegy to Jesus and his redeeming power? That's one I would want to read and from which I would gain hope!

73) God Land: A Story of Faith, Loss, and Renewal in Middle America by Lyz Lenz—Lyz Lenz grew up in the church, but began to feel distant from it as over and over again, her progressive beliefs clashed with the churches she attended. Ultimately, her beliefs led her to leave several churches, get a divorce, and study the conflictual nature of the institution of church and Christianity as a religion in Middle America. While I don’t agree with many of Lenz’s stances, and I can’t recommend this book because of its intermittent and unpredictable swearing, I do think Lenz raises some good questions. Why is the church in America so wrapped up in politics? Why is it that sports are the greatest competition for the church, often becoming a religion of their own? Why are so many Christians hypocritical, not practicing what they preach? As Lenz herself queries, “What is happening to our souls?” While I don’t agree with Lenz’s move to seeing faith more as spirituality than a saving trust in Jesus for salvation, I do think the church has work to do. I don’t think America, Middle America or anywhere, is a “God Land” anymore, and if any institution is going to change that, it is going to have to be the church of Jesus Christ made up of true believers.

74) Compassion & Conviction: The And Campaign’s Guide to Faithful Civic Engagement by Justin Giboney, Michael Wear, and Christ Butler—This book was recommended (and given to us) as the best current book on politics. I can’t agree more! Grounded in the gospel, this book encourages Christians to engage in politics civilly, and for the glory of God. Using biblical and historical examples, this book shows that this type of civil engagement is indeed possible. Politics, for Christians, is not ultimately about partisanship, but about people, people with whom God calls believers to faithfully engage.

75) Instead: Navigating the Adventures of a Childfree Life by Maria Coffey—Maria Coffey writes that she chose a life of adventure instead of the life of motherhood. At first, it seems as if she does not value children, but as time goes on, she reveals that she chose this life, in part, because of fear. By the end of the memoir, Maria is a mother, just not in the traditional sense, having mothered and cared for many children that have come into her path. This book contains intermittent language and morals and values which which I do not agree, but I think this subject deserves more exploration. I hope that a Christian woman someday writes a memoir about child free living, not necessarily representing its adventures, but presenting how a woman can live faithfully instead of as flippantly, as Coffey sometimes does.

76) American Idolatry: How Christian Nationalism Betrays the Gospel and Threatens the Church by Andrew L. Whitehead—Associate professor of Sociology at Indian University-Purdue University is a professed Christian, and in this book, he calls out fellow white believers for their idolatry. Whitehead names power, fear, and violence and idols of Christian nationalism and lays out how and where he sees the church practicing them. While he does make some suggestions for finding and listening to marginalized voices, and while he references the gospel, I think he really falls short in integrating true saving faith in the fight against Christian nationalism. Yes, Christians can be idolators. Yes, Christians can co-opt faith to serve political uses. But how do believers faithfully witness and evangelize and bring to saving faith? That has to be the basis for all change, and for even the existence of the church! Maybe Whitehead has an answer to this question, but I did not find it in this book.

Saturday, September 28, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 39)

What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Breakfasts:


Lunches:

Carrot and romaine salads with shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot), salsa, and spicy ranch dressing (The Spiffy Cookie)
Hamburger bowls modeled after Fit Foodie Find's air fryer steak bites recipe
Rice with green chiles (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker), Instant Pot salsa chicken (Simply Happy Foodie), and cheese bowls
Sunflower seed and bean oat balls (Oatrageous Oatmealswith broccoli and carrots

Dinners:


Breakfast for dinner: Fluffy buttermilk pumpkin pancakes (The Modern Crumb) and sausage
Dinner out at Gadzook's
Dinner out at Kuka Sushi 
Homemade ravioli (My husband)

Snacks:

All butter apple shortbread cookies from Trader Joe's
Apples
Apple cobbler (Sally's Baking Recipes)
Bananas
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Cantaloupe
Cheese sticks
Chocolate mousse pumpkins from Trader Joe's
Fruit pouches
Honey crisp apple cinnamon Greek yogurt and peanut butter protein granola from Trader Joe's
Leftover pancakes
Oat flour pumpkin muffin bread (Hungry Hobby)
Oatmeal in various forms
Peanuts
Pumpkin banana oatmeal muffins (Hungry Hobby)
Pumpkin spiced teeny tiny pretzels from Trader Joe's
Pumpkin overnight oats from Trader Joe's
Peanuts
Red hott cupcakes (Just a Pinch)

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Chickpeas
Rice with green chiles (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker), Instant Pot salsa chicken (Simply Happy Foodie), and cheese bowls

Fridge:

Last old apple
Applesauce jar
Ripe bananas
Cantaloupe
Five pound bag of carrots
Cilantro
Cream cheese
Carton of 18 eggs
Green onions
Head of iceberg lettuce
Head of leaf lettuce
Mushrooms
Sunflower seeds
Swiss cheese
Tortillas

Pantry:

Coconut milk
Jelly beans
Lentils
Powdered sugar

What went bad:

Nothing that I know of!

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

3 ingredient apple pie donuts (Kirbie’s Cravings)
Creamy vegetable lentil soup (Budget Bytes)
Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)
Steamed broccoli and carrots for lunches


What I Froze for Future Me:



The rest of a jar of apple cider that I did not use


Creamy vegetable lentil soup (Budget Bytes)

Friday, September 27, 2024

The Simplified Life (September)


Sometimes, simple does not mean minimal. Sometimes simplicity has a cost. This month has been a case study in that.

For example, I recently decided to invest in a good pair of shoes for work. I had been reusing old running shoes as work shoes, as they aren't really that worn out, the foam has just compressed to the point of discomfort while running. Doing this worked, but only if I alternated regularly between pairs, so as to avoid foot pain from the lack of cushion. I got to a point where all the pairs in my work rotation were really bugging me though, and my husband encouraged me to buy one new pair, in a brand recommended by coworkers. Man did they cost a lot, but so far, they feel good! The purchase of new footwear reduced the number of shoes on our shoe rack (clutter), as I recycled the old pairs through which I had been rotating. Additionally, this purchase eliminated the decision fatigue of daily shoe choice. My comfort level has improved, which reduces body strain and fatigue. The weight of life overall feels lighter.

In my running journey thus far, I have primarily preferred to use fruit pouches for long run fuel. They are less expensive than gels, healthier, and easier to buy at the grocery store. After making a splurge purchase on running gels and trying them out, however, I am hooked. Running gels are much more concentrated, and take up less space, meaning I can transport them more easily. They give me energy fast, versus slow. (On the run, versus in real life, I want fast, rather than slow digesting fuel.) Yes, the gels cost double the amount of fruit pouches, but they are making my running life more enjoyable. My runs are also more productive, in terms of performance goals.

On that note, the cheapest place to buy gels for running is yes, Amazon. Other places have the same price, but require shipping fees. I considered an Amazon order, but realized it would mean buying flavors of gels I did not like. Would I save money doing so? Yes. But would it simplify life? No, not really. I would be complicating life by trying to force down fuel I don't like. So, I paid the extra $7.95 shipping cost and ordered from The Feed to get just the gels I wanted, and none of the ones I did not. Minimal cost? No. An easier, more enjoyable life? Yes.

I made yet another purchase to solve the problem of running gels littering the counter. I could spend my time continually rearranging the bags that came from The Feed, or buy an organizer. I chose the latter. Yes, it is another thing in our home, but one I can use for multiple purposes (eg organizing other kitchen paraphernalia, if not in a season where I have tons of gels lying about). Win on that front.

In terms of multiple purchases, I have discovered that my husband and I can use the same shampoo/conditioner (that is, I can use his product). It has a neutral scent, and as long as I add conditioner, it works. Why buy another product and add to the overwhelm in the shower? He's good. I'm good. Less products purchased there.

On the subject of multiple products to do one thing, I use lotion to remove eye makeup. Is it meant for that? No. Do I really care? No. In another life, might I buy a product specifically made to remove eye makeup and enjoy it? Yes. But right now, I am prioritizing my running, and my money and efforts are going there. While I may not be simplifying the number of things in my house as I invest more in more running journey, I am simplifying my priorities.

I continue to try to reduce decision fatigue by making decisions immediately. For example, when I got my hair cut this month, I scheduled my next appointment. Yes, I might overthink it later (wonder if I need it and want to spend the money), but at least it's done for now and I don't have to monitor my hair to figure out when to schedule next. I just have my haircut on a schedule. Rinse and repeat.

Did I spend a lot of money this month? Yes. Does my life feel more organized as a result? Yes. I've been choosing my battles, and this month, order mattered, so that's where my money went.

Saturday, September 21, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 38)


What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Breakfasts:


Oatmeal in various forms
Super simple granola 

Lunches:

Carrot and romaine salads with shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot), salsa, and spicy ranch dressing (The Spiffy Cookie)
Buffalo chicken pasta (Budget Bytes)
Steel-cut oat bean chili (Oatrageous Oatmeals)

Dinners:

Hamburgers from Freddy's
Homemade ravioli (My husband)
Nachos with shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot, taco dip (Budget Bytes), and pico de gallo (Rise and Run)
Oxtail ragu (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbookover creamy polenta (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Potato, spinach, and mozzarella frittata Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook) and Instant Pot baked potatoes (Platings + Pairings)

Snacks:

Apples
Apple cobbler (Sally's Baking Addiction)
Bananas
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Cantaloupe
Cheese sticks
Chocolate molasses cookies (Rise and Run)
Fruit pouches
Grapes
Kheer (Indian pudding oatmeal) (Oatrageous Oatmeals)
Leftover pancakes
Oat flour pumpkin muffin bread (Hungry Hobby)
Oatmeal in various forms
Peanuts
Pumpkin banana oatmeal muffins (Hungry Hobby)
Tortilla chips

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Apple
Potato, spinach, and mozzarella frittata (
Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Red cooking wine
Shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot)
Steak meat

Fridge:

Ripe bananas
Old broccoli
Brussel sprouts
Carton of 18 eggs
Half gallon of milk
Parmesan cheese
Old jar of peanut butter
Store bought ranch dressing
Head of romaine lettuce
Sour cream

Pantry:

Cornmeal
Can of pumpkin

Can of whole tomatoes

What went bad:

Nothing that I know of

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Apple cobbler (Sally's Baking Recipes)
Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)


What I Froze for Future Me:


Brussel sprouts


Red hott cupcakes (unfrosted) (Just a Pinch)

Monday, September 16, 2024

Afghan 81


By God's grace, afghan 81! This blanket was supposed to be done in chunky yarn, but of course, I  used regular yarn. That made it take a little longer. I chained 120 to start, and even then it still ended up a bit small. The extended single crochet stitch in the blanket was a new one for me, though. Figuring out the stitch was a win! I carried the yarn instead of cutting it each time, and in the end, the blanket shows a few mistakes. Hopefully it will still bless the dreams of some baby, though!

Hook: size J Boye ergonomic crochet hook

Yarn:

Caron simply soft white

Mainstays red

Pattern: 

Dreamweaver blanket (Crochet Dreamz)

Finished size: 25 x 40 inches (larger than the pattern, but partially due to the fact that I extended my rows to make the last gray and white chunks of color match in size).

Saturday, September 14, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 37)

What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Party food for an event:

Pico de gallo (Rise and Run)
Pumpkin muffins (Handle the Heat)
Taco dip 
(Budget Bytes)
Tortilla chips

Snacks:

Apples
Bananas
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Chocolate molasses cookies (Rise and Run)
Cheese sticks
Fruit pouches
Grapes
Leftover milk muffins (Bake Beat Repeat)
Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal muffins (The First Year)
Leftover pancakes
Peaches
Peanuts

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

No-knead pan pizza (Budget Bytes)
One bag of ravioli

Fridge:

Five pound bag of carrots
Cream cheese
Cucumber
Gala apples
Iceberg lettuce
Half gallon of milk
Jalapenos
Neufchatel cheese
Head of romaine lettuce
Skinny special sauce (Lauren Fit Foodie)
Tomatoes

Pantry:

Frank's buffalo sauce (small bottle)

Hemp seeds
Jamaican jerk seasoning
Pecans
Can of pumpkin
Raisins
Can of diced tomatoes
Swerve sweetener

What went bad:

Nothing that I know of!

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Buffalo chicken pasta (Budget Bytes)
Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)
Kheer (Indian pudding oatmeal) 
(Oatrageous Oatmeals)


What I Froze for Future Me:

Cauliflower rice


Cooked chickpeas


Shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot)

Tuesday, September 10, 2024

Real Life Marriage: Velcro


When you first get married, you are enamored with your spouse. You want to do everything with them! Life is just so exciting (or at least it was for me). But then real life hits and things get hard. Stressors arise. Illness comes. Events take places. Maturity develops. I think it is normal to start out a little bit enmeshed in marriage, but then differentiation happens. While this is a natural progression, it can still be an uncomfortable one.

After a recent discussion with my therapist about the state of my marriage, I came to the conclusion that marriage at this stage is a lot like velcro. There was a lot of differentiation that happened for us while my husband was in school. We were still pushing towards the same goal, though. Now that he has graduated, ironically, it feels like we are even a little less united. Yes, technically we have more time together, but we are also more fully invested in completely different pursuits: our jobs, our separate friends, my running, etc. Our lives are often parallel, instead of in tandem, like two strips of velcro lying side by side, but not attaching.

When we stick together, we do it well and are strong and secure. We enjoy great time together, like on our recent vacation. When we unhook and unhinge, however, it can feel prickly and rough. There can be a lot of friction. Sometimes we actually need to move further apart to give our selves space and reduce the abrasion we are causing each other.

The beauty of velcro, though, is the ability to reattach. Sticking and unsticking are not one and done. They are repeated processes over the courses of days, weeks, and life. Maybe that's the beauty of marriage at this stage, growing both apart and together, and hopefully in the end, being stronger in our bond in the long run.

Saturday, September 7, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 36)


What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Snacks:

Apples
Bananas
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Cantaloupe
Cheese sticks
Fruit pouches
Homemade fudge rounds (Handle the Heat)
Leftover milk muffins (Bake Beat Repeat)
Leftover pancakes
Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal pancakes
Peaches
Peanuts

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Big-batch Instant Pot white beans (Epicurious)
Blender banana oatmeal muffins (Detoxinista)
Blueberries
Chicken sausage
Two pound bag of broccoli
Frozen green beans
Spaghetti Pie (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Tanzanian peaberry coffee

Fridge:

Bread and butter pickles

Cantaloupe
Cucumber
Dozen egg carton
Greek yogurt
Half gallon of milk
Parmesan cheese

Head of romaine lettuce
Roma tomatoes
Soy sauce
Spinach
Spicy ranch dressing (The Spiffy Cookie)

Ground turkey

Pantry:

Chickpeas
Parsley
Two cans of stewed tomatoes
White beans

What went bad:

Nothing that I know of

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)
Oatmeal muffins (The First Year)
Sunflower seed and bean oat balls (Oatrageous Oatmealswith broccoli and carrots