But in this season of saying, "Yes," I've realized that I still have to say, "No." I have to say, "No" to extra work opportunities, even when they feel important. I have to say, "No," to service opportunities because they don't seem right for me. I have to say, "No" to non-essential items on my to-do list, things that used to be important to me, like having a clean car, or trying to keep things "perfectly" organized. Sometimes I have to say, "No" to my preferred early bedtime or preparing and eating healthy food. I've certainly had to say, "No," to sitting at home on social media, which I enjoy, but really isn't that productive. Changing my, "No" to the unknown to a, "No" to the known feels unsafe and uncomfortable and scary. But it also feels right.
If life is about living, I need to to expect the unexpected, find joy in the journey, and give my scared yeses more and more often. It's kind of crazy that embracing life still means saying, "No," but hopefully those noes make room for the yeses that need to happen.
I often find myself just wanting to settle into my same old routine and be my usual "anti-social" self, but I often find it incredibly rewarding when I push myself to get out there and try new things that I may not have otherwise. It's for sure a tough change, but I think we'll both benefit from it! My schedule is still that I have to work weekends, but I am only at this position for another two months, so hopefully after that we will be able to catch up and get some hikes in together!
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