Saturday, August 31, 2024

Everything I Read in August

I started off this month strong, thinking I might catch up to last year's average of 10 or more books a month. Not! I got stuck in reading political books, and other non-fiction fare, and those dragged. So, this is where my list ended up this month: 

59) Trouble in Paradise by Robin Lee Hatcher—This was a sweet story about writer Shayla Vincent and Rancher Ian O'Connell. Neither plan to fall for one another. Shayla has a novel to write, and Ian has been a widow for quite some time, but then they enter into a business agreement, and soon realize that there is much more between them than that. The problem is that they both see each other as trouble, interferences in what God wants for them. But what if what God wants for them is so much more? The author notes that this edition of the book is a rewrite of a book from her pre-Christian days, and it is a good one, incorporating the importance of seeking and following after the Lord first. I really enjoyed reading this book and was a tad sad when it ended.

60) Talking Across the Divide: How to Communicate with People You Disagree With and Maybe Change the World by Justin Lee–Author Justin Lee grew up evangelical and then came out as gay. Unwilling to give up either his faith or his sexuality, he began having conversations “across the divide.” In this book, he shares what he has learned (and is learning) about how to have productive dialogue. While Lee gives some examples from his own work, the book is largely about how to engage others in respectful dialogue, not with the intent to change minds, “but to allow your position to be heard on its own merits.” Lee gives practical tips on how to engage in such dialogue, how to plan for such dialogue, self-care during conflict, and more. This book is really a practical guide on civil discourse, one from which many could benefit in today’s very polarized world.

61) Failing America’s Faithful: How Today’s Churches are Mixing God with Politics and Losing Their Way by Kathleen Townsend Kennedy—Written in 2007 by Kathleen Townsend Kennedy, the first female lieutenant governor of Maryland, daughter of Robert Kennedy, and a Catholic, this book is a bit dated. Kennedy suggests that people want to go to and be part of church. I argue that this is no longer the case. Rather, the disagreements in the church about social justice issues, among other things, have driven people away, just as Kennedy predicted. This book is a bit outside my normal realm of reading, and to be frank, I did not agree with a lot of it. I do not agree that public service is necessary for faith, or that people are closest to God through it. I argue that works evidence faith, and that the Holy Spirit who indwells believers at salvation makes them close to them. Still, Kennedy’s criticism that the church emphasizes personal moralism over love for neighbor is apt. Her point that leaving the church will not help shape it or correct its lacks is spot on. Christians need to engage more with the world, and with politics, but from a place of love for God and faith first, which I think Townsend fails to fully nail.

62) Something Beautiful by Lenora Worth—Lucas Dorsette was orphaned at a young age. Willa O’Connor was given up for adoption. They meet on the Louisiana bayou and fall in love, but can they both overcome their heartache to have the lasting beauty of a long term relationship? This is their tale, and a beautiful one at that!

63) Lacey's Retreat by Lenora Worth—Whew! This book packs a punch of a story. It's titled “retreat,” but is more about political intrigue, plots to kill, and trying to find the true criminals before they find the ones trying to make things right. Lacey Dorsette York wanted no part of any of this, but then Gavin Prescott finds her in a church, begging her to help him as he struggles with a stab wound. This begins her time on the run, eventually taking Gavin home to the bayou, falling in love with him, and choosing to risk her own life to help him. I enjoyed this book, but it was a LOT more suspenseful than I expected!

64) Conscience of a Conservative: A Rejection of Destructive Politics and A Return to Principle by Jeff Flake—Former Arizona Senator, and now Ambassador to Turkey Jeff Flake is a bit of a controversial figure. He is known for crossing party lines, and many have called him out for doing so. In this book, he uncovers what he sees are the problems with partisan politics, what true conservatives are, and how politicians have come to care more for their positions than for the people they represent. Flake throws a lot of people (including himself at times) under the bus, and there are many thinly (and not so thinly) disguised critiques of President Trump. I will acknowledge that I really do not know politics that well, so a lot of what Flake wrote went over my head. Still, I think this might be an important read for people who call themselves conservatives, or think they know what conservatism is. Spoiler alert: true conservatism is a theory of government, not a political party, nor a religious stance.

65) This is Where You Belong: Finding Home Wherever You Are by Melody Warnick—Unpack. Find joy. These are core principles of this book. Reading a little bit more like a textbook than a life experiment (as it is touted), this book is a useful resource about place attachment and how to grow it. The author, Melody Warnick, practiced putting the principles of this book into place when she herself moved cross country to Blacksburg, Virginia. With “Love Your City” checklists at the end of each chapter, this book could be a helpful gift and/or guide for people in the midst of a move.

66) So Help Me God by Mike Pence—This is quite the tome, and an insightful one at that! It is not so much of a life history of Vice President Michael Pence (though there is a brief one), but rather a play by play of his journey to the White House, and his time in it. Pence makes his faith clear, starting each chapter with a Bible verse, and states time and time again that his identity is, “A Christian, a conservative, and a Republican, in that order.” Pence serves as a foil to the brashness of President Trump in most of his recollections of his years in national government. Pence's commentary on the divisiveness of American politics and the vitriol therein are troubling, at best, and Pence humbly admits the ways that he played a part in this. His commitment to conservatism and not abusing his power stand out time and time again, not the least of which was when he chose to fulfill his duty certify the election vote count for his successor, despite pressure to do otherwise. In the end, Pence writes that he just tried to do his duty, so help [him] God. If only more elected leaders could say the same!

67) 13 Things Mentally Strong People Don't Do: Take Back Your Power, Embrace Change, Face Your Fears, and Train Your Brain for Happiness and Success by Amy MorinPsychotherapist Amy Morin has been through her fair share of griefs and struggles. She lost her mother to cancer, her first husband to an early heart attack, and her father-in-law to cancer. She could have allowed herself to wallow in grief, but instead she chose to practice and grow her mental strength. She defines mental strength as “your ability to regulate your emotions, manage your thoughts, and behave in a positive manner, despite your circumstances." Using case examples (probably made up, as sharing real examples would violate client confidentiality), Morin examines 13 aspects of mental strength, writing about them in tangible, accessible ways. Not a lot of what she shared was new, but her assertion that people pleasing is actually more selfish than saying, "No" gave me pause for thought. Overall, this book's broad overview of strategies that promote mental health is probably best for individuals not already in therapy. Individuals who are in therapy might benefit from a more complex discussion of what it means to be mentally strong. 

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 35)

What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Snacks:

Apples
Bananas
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Cantaloupe
Carrots
Cheesejacks (Moorlands Eater)
Cheese sticks
Fruit pouches
Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal pancakes
Peaches
Peanuts
Reese's peanut butter cupcakes (unfrosted) (Your Cup of Cake)
Strawberries

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Big-batch Instant Pot white beans (Epicurious)
Cheesejacks (Moorlands Eater)
Cherries
Chicken broth
French bread
Two bags of green beans
Hamburger
Indian oats upma (Oatrageous Oatmeals)
Onions
Reese's peanut butter cupcakes (unfrosted) (Your Cup of Cake)
Shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot)
Summery vegetable soup (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Unfried rice (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker

Fridge:

Baby carrots
Two pound bag of whole carrots
Two pound bag of cheese
Whole chicken
Carton of 18 eggs
Green onions
Head of romaine lettuce
Strawberry jam

Pantry:

Black beans
Chili powder
Cumin
Deluxe raisins

Green chiles
Fire roasted tomatoes
Kidney beans
Tube of Nuun tablets
Linguine
Smarties
White rice

What went bad:

A small bit of the lettuce, but thankfully, I saved the rest!

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Homemade fudge rounds (Handle the Heat)
Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)
Rice with green chiles (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker), Instant Pot salsa chicken (Simply Happy Foodie), and cheese bowls
Steel-cut oat bean chili (Oatrageous Oatmeals)

Super simple granola 


What I Froze for Future Me:

Rice with green chiles (Easy Vegetarian Slow Cooker

Wednesday, August 28, 2024

One Box



One box. That's all I took away from my childhood home. One box full of memories. One box full of things, to be honest, that just went right back on shelves or in boxes at my home with my husband. I went through more boxes than just this one. Threw away bags of "trash." Donated items that will probably not find new homes, but more likely, their own place in another dumpster. Stuff. The stuff of childhood. The stuff of memories. Stuff that I once thought mattered.

I saved many things growing up. I culled away as I grew older. I parted ways with my stuffed animals. Donated my collection of McDonald Happy Meal toy Barbies. Gave away my plastic horses. All that mattered, but I managed to part with it. But there was still other stuff. Trinkets. Matchbox cars. Books I thought I might give to a child of my own, if I had one some day. 

I got rid of most of that stuff as I packed my final box. I did save books my grandparents gave me so I can give them to my niece. I scanned the 16th birthday card those same grandparents made for me. I kept high school newspaper clippings, but those too, will probably soon find the recycle bin.

I did manage to reconnect with some high school friends by scanning and sharing the newspaper clippings. That was worth something. Maybe someday, I'll look through the yearbooks I brought home. Those really mattered to me when I forked over my cold, hard-earned cash for them, but they matter less now.

Alistair Begg (2021) writes about what matters in his Truth for Life devotional. “What do you most care about? Asks God. Your home? Your possessions? Your tech gadgets? Or the people in your streets who do not know Jesus?” (p. 238). I will be honest. Stuff still matters to me. That's why I brought that one box home. But considering how much stuff I have let go of over the years, I need to focus on what really matters, not that I don't give thanks for my stuff, but that I focus most on true salvation in Jesus, and sharing and living that out.

One day, my body will go in the ground. That one box will hold my DNA, until all of it decomposes and mixes with the earth from which God formed mankind. My spirit, however, will live on. It will live on with Jesus. I want that message to be the one that lingers on after me and all my stuff is gone. There is a Savior. His name is Jesus. His Father God created this world and all the stuff that is in it, but the only thing that really matters is eternal life, and once received, living out its message of eternal hope through the indwelling Holy Spirit.

Reference:

Begg, A. (2021). Truth for life: 365 daily devotions. Good Book Company.

Monday, August 26, 2024

The Simplified Life (August)

Life is just never really that simple, is it? I have realized this month that some things are just about as simple as I want them. Still, my brain margin for other things is small, meaning I just have to simplify overall.

We only have two sets of towels and sheets, and we alternate between them. It does meant that these items get more use and wear out more quickly, but we also require less storage for them. I like it this way. I have a basic "uniform" for work of a t-shirt (short or long-sleeved) and jeans. That limits my choices. One day, I go to another location and actually have a work uniform shirt. I wear that shirt with the same black pants every day. I will need to change to longer black pants for winter, but still, it is an easy swap. We have less in our closets as a result of these lifestyle habits.

While I have not done such a great job at simplifying pantry stores lately, I still look for recipes that include ingredients we already have, or use regularly. I also substitute ingredients like crazy. This drives my husband nuts, as it can make cooking more difficult, but on the grocery buying and storing fronts, it is simpler.

My parents are moving and offered us lots of stuff. I took away only one box. It was all I thought I could go through, and having that limit was good. I scanned most of the papers I wanted and tossed a bunch more. I have what memories I can keep stored in my brain. Some of the rest of it just cannot matter anymore.

I think that is a lesson of life: that not everything matters, and that things that matter at one stage of life don't matter at another. So here's to continuing to focus on what really matters, simplified life or not.

Saturday, August 24, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 34)

What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Snacks:

Bananas
Blender banana oatmeal muffins (Detoxinista)
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Carton of 18 eggs
Cheese sticks
Fruit pouches
Graham crackers
Healthy carrot bundt cake (Amy's Healthy Baking)
Leftover pancakes
Oatmeal in various forms
Oat potato pancakes (Savory Spin)
Peaches
Peanuts

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Chicken curry oatmeal (Montana Gluten Free)
Classic bolognese (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Two bags of frozen green beans
Miracle one hour white bread (Modern Honey)
Mixed vegetables
Penne alla vodka (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Reese's peanut butter cupcakes (unfrosted) (Your Cup of Cake)
Shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot)
Slow cooker black bean oat groat soup 
(Oatrageous Oatmeals)
Spiced coconut chicken and rice (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)
Zucchini drop biscuits (Sally's Baking Addiction)

Fridge:

Two pound bag of carrots
Celery
Egg yolk
Green onions
Romaine lettuce

Half gallon of good milk
That stubborn half gallon of soured milk!
Spicy ranch dressing (The Spiffy Cookie)

Yellow squash

Pantry:

Arborio rice
Fettucine noodles
Garlic powder
Graham crackers
Peppermint extract

What went bad:

Nothing that I know of!

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)


What I Froze for Future Me:

Oat potato pancakes (Savory Spin)

Monday, August 19, 2024

Unless the Lord Builds the Marriage


Psalm 127 starts out, "Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain" (New International Version, NIV). I am sure the writer had in mind literal building of a house in this verse, but also the metaphorical building of a house/home/family. So lately, I have been paraphrasing the verse for my own life to read, "Unless the Lord builds the marriage, its builders labor in vain." With marriage as under attack and character trying as it is, I just don't see any way to make it work without Jesus.

My husband and I are pretty much polar opposites in many ways. In fact, when we were dating, I googled our personality types and most everything I read said we should not be together. I tried to resist the attraction for a while, but after regular prayer about it, decided I just had to trust God. If God would unite me with a man very different than me, I had to trust that His plans and ways were greater than my ways. No surprise, in marriage, we are still very different, and that can be difficult. It is character trying, and Lord willing, character building.

That's the thing, though. We see marriage as a greater than just our union. We see it as a reflection of the gospel, "the gospel on display," as one friend wrote on our wedding canvas. We seek the Lord and His will, and for me, it was very clear that God willed for me to marry my husband. Could I have said no? Yes. Would I have suffered. Yes, and if I was truly running from God's will in the matter, God might have sent a Jonah-sized whale to be my home for a while. No one wants God to build that kind of house!

I know some people make marriage work without God. I am just not sure how. Maybe the enemy does not attack? Maybe those people view marriage differently? All I know is that without the foundation of the Lord, the house of my marriage is tipping off center. There are just too many hard things to survive without having a strong base, and an all-wise builder who anticipated the storms that come to accost the place.

So here we are, seeking the Lord, duking it out at times (me probably more than him). Struggling. Succeeding. Sustained by the Lord's strength. That's the only way this house is going to stand.

Saturday, August 17, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 33)

What I Used of My Meal Plan-

Breakfasts:

Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal pancakes (Made by my momma!)
Red berry risotto oatmeal (Mel's Kitchen Cafe)
Super simple granola 

Lunches:

Carrot and romaine salads with shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot) or tuna, salsa, and spicy ranch dressing (The Spiffy Cookie)
Chicken nuggets and a microwaved potato
Jambalaya with quinoa (Meal Prep in an Instant)
Potato, spinach, and mozzarella frittata Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Zucchini drop biscuits (Sally's Baking Addiction) and crudite

Dinners:


Baked eggs and polenta with chunky vegetable sauce (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook) and zucchini drop biscuits (Sally's Baking Addiction)
Grilled frozen pizza (The Kitchn)
Homemade pasta with vegetables and eggs (Made by my husband) 
Momma's healthy meatloaf (All Recipes) and baked potatoes
Zucchini drop biscuits (Sally's Baking Addiction) and easy egg salad (The Instant Pot Electric Pressure Cooker Cookbook)

Snacks:

Blender banana oatmeal muffins (Detoxinista)
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Cheese sticks
Chocolate strawberry energy bites (Thermomix)
Fruit pouches
Graham crackers
Healthy carrot bundt cake (Amy's Healthy Baking)
Honeydew melon
Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal pancakes
Peaches
Peanuts

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Mixed vegetables
Zucchini

Fridge:

Five pound bag of carrots
Two pound bag of cheese
Green pepper
Honeydew melon
Big jar of salsa
Spinach

Pantry:

Can of tomato sauce

What went bad:

Still trying to work through the soured half gallon of milk

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)


What I Froze for Future Me:

Blender banana oatmeal muffins (Detoxinista)

Saturday, August 10, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 32)


What I Used of My Meal Plan-


Baked eggs and polentia with chunky vegetable sauce (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook) and zucchini drop biscuits (Sally's Baking Addiction)
French toast (My husband!)
Potato, spinach, and mozzarella frittata 
Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Spaghetti All'Amatriciana (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)

Snacks:

Apples
Apple oatmeal Swiss cheese muffins (More Sweets Please)
Bananas
Banana oatmeal muffins (Bake and Bacon)
Blender banana oatmeal muffins (Detoxinista)
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Cheese sticks
Fruit pouches
Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal pancakes
Peaches
Peanuts

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Big bag of broccoli
Blackberries
Zucchini and pepper ciambatta (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)

Fridge:

Dozen eggs
Homemade bread
Red bell pepper
One head of romaine lettuce

Rosemary
Spinach
Unsalted butter
Yellow squash

Zucchini

Pantry:

Almond flour
Diced tomatoes
Ripe bananas
Oreos
5 lb bag of potatoes
Tomato sauce

What went bad:

The milk soured...again!

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)
Red berry risotto oatmeal (Mel's Kitchen Cafe)


What I Froze for Future Me:


Strawberries

Real Life Marriage: Watching the World Burn


Twenty five years. Fifteen years. Ten years. One year. The length of marriages I have watched burn in the last few years. Each fire has hit hard, with profound sadness, with a deep sense of grief, with anger, and with a measure of fear for my own marriage. If these commitment have fallen, what is the fate of my own marriage? Some of these marriage have not had Jesus, whom I argue is the glue that holds everything together, but still. What about my marriage? When the world of marriage around me is burning, what is there to keep mine from catching fire, too?

Sure, we chose covenant marriage. That counts for something. If nothing else, it would force us to get some solid counseling before we made any rash decisions about ending our marriage.

We have three sets of parents who have each been married over 25 years. That is special. We do not inherit a marriage, though. Our marriage is our own.

We got to church. We have unofficial marriage mentors, people I think would step in if we needed them, but they are definitely not there in an official sense. I know our church would call us out if we wanted to end our marriage, but getting exiled from the church has not changed the fate of other marriages in our body.

Much of our marriage is ultimately out of my control. The best I can do is to commit myself to it, and to daily practices that keep it healthy. That means taking care of myself so that I can be in a good place physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. It means continuing to go to counseling to work on my issues. It means treating my husband with love and respect. It means seeking to eternally learn about him and about ways to improve our marriage. It means keeping up with dates, even if I have to be the one to plan them. It means sticking to these "little" things so as to provide protection against "big" things.

At the end of the day, my marriage is a commitment before God. Good, bad, or ugly, so help me God, I plan to keep it. If my husband feels the same (and he does), our marriage will stand, but only on that fireproof foundation of the Lord's help. That is the ONLY way, because He is THE WAY.

Monday, August 5, 2024

On the Division of Responsibilities: You Can't Eat the Cake While It Bakes


On the division of responsibilities: "You can't have your cake and eat it, too" is the lesson I am learning as we seek to
engage the rules of Fair Play (2021). Yes, it's great if I delegate something to my husband, but then I have to wait for him to do it, and that takes my time. Take, for example, weekend meals. It is wonderful that he has such great cooking skills and can make his own meals. It is not so great that it now takes about double the time to get breakfast on the table Sunday mornings. Where we used to be able to get to breakfast right after I finished food prep, as I made both our breakfasts at the same time, now I have to clean up my mess, cede the kitchen to him, and wait. Yes, I could do my food prep at another time, but I have not figured that out yet, and there is simply not enough room for both of us to work at the same time. I can't eat the cake while making it. If the cake is for him to make his own meals, I have to give that time to bake.

There are other ways this applies, too. Where we divided tasks he did not regularly do in the past, I have to wait for him to find his own way of doing them. When they are tasks I have traditionally done, I either have to use kind words to ask for him to make adjustments to the way he would do them, or allow him to do them in whatever way he finds to do them, usually some of both. The process of finding new rhythms and routines is just that, a process.

I have a tendency to be critical, controlling, and persnickety. That is one of the many reasons why I have done so many of the household tasks for so long. If I did them, I could do them my way, on my time. But that was not getting us anywhere, so here we are, trying to form a new way, trying to bake a new cake, so to speak. And dang it, you can't eat the cake while it bakes (and if you try, your mouth will get burned). I guess I will just have to sit back and watch the process. Or maybe I will just step away from the heat of the oven and go do something else. The process will still happen.

Reference:

Rodsky, E. (2021). Fair play: A game-changing solution for when you have too much to do (and more life to live). Penguin Publishing Group.

Saturday, August 3, 2024

What I Used/What I Used Up (Week 31)

What I Used of My Meal Plan-


Farfalle with blue cheese and peas (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)
Jambalaya with quinoa (Made by my sweet husband from a new cookbook, Meal Prep in an Instant)
Spaghetti All'Amatriciana (Good Housekeeping Family Italian Cookbook)

Snacks:

Apples
Apple oatmeal Swiss cheese muffins (More Sweets Please)
Bananas
Cajun peanuts (Cajun Cooking Recipes)  
Carrots
Cheese sticks
Fruit pouches
Oatmeal in various forms
Oatmeal pancakes
Peanuts

What I Used Up--

Freezer:

Baked hush puppies (National CAPCFP Association)
Two pound bag of broccoli
Bag of green beans

Fridge:

Carton of 18 eggs
Large Greek yogurt
Gallon of milk
Old onions
Pastrami
Ranch dressing
Rosemary

Sweet balsamic

Pantry:

Freeze dried strawberries
Head of romaine lettuce
Spaghetti

Can of whole tomatoes

What went bad:

Half a package of lunch meet. It was gray....

What I Prepped for Next Week: 

Banana oatmeal muffins (Bake and Bacon)
Chocolate strawberry energy bites (Thermomix)
Instant Pot hard-boiled eggs (Omnivore's Cookbook)
Shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot)


What I Froze for Future Me:



Big-batch Instant Pot white beans (Epicurious)


Broccoli cheese empanada 
(Adapted from Tessa Domestic Diva)

Jambalaya with quinoa (Made by my sweet husband from a new cookbook, Meal Prep in an


 Instant
)

Shredded chicken (365 Days of Crockpot)